Wednesday, August 30, 2006

frustrated!!

Hey all! Why do guys have to be such a's????? I don't understand what it is with me and perverted guys..... All I want is to please God and not anything else. I don't want a relationship right now. And this guys says he is attracted to me... and keeps saying stuff when he knows darn well I don't like it!!! Guys piss me off! I am getting the impression that I am bad luck when it comes to relationships.... I don't really care about it... It just makes me feel really uncomfortable and disgusted.... like I wanna go hid under a rock and not come out!!

On another note.... everything else is going pretty well. I have been at Kohls for a year now! Nothing really bad has happened except with that Jen girl who was stealing money from us... still haven't gotten my money back yet!!! But yeah... nothing really new is going on besides the darn guy problems.... but anywho..... I just want to focus on God and trust in Him. I have been doing really well with my feelings of myself. On Sunday, I went to get a water from 7 eleven before going to Bridge and as I was walking in I was like I feel pretty and I feel good about myself... I didn't have bad thoughts/wasn't "condeming" myself for the crap that has happened... I didn't even care what people thought of me! I am still feeling like this off and on this week... but with the guy issue it has made it a little hard... So yeah! If you could pray for me that would be good.... I miss you all! Love you!

5 comments:

Nikki Jordan said...

Sounds like that guy is sexually harrassing you. If it is at work you should say something to your HR department. If not, just say to him "this is sexual harrasment and I don't have to take this" and walk away. If he does it again you could press charges.

Beccalynn said...

I agree with Nikki. That was the first thing that came to my mind. I was always afraid to say anything to guys when they sexually harrased me, afraid to do anything about it cz I didn't want anyone to think ill of me so I always just let them get away with it and then felt so guilty and dirty as if I had done something wrong. Don't feel bad to what Nikki says--to take a stand. No one should be treating you that way. I'll be praying for you!

Jen said...

it's not a guy from work... and I really don't want to do anything b/c he is going through a lot right now.... that is why he is saying stuff like this.... he recently got attacked and so he has a lot of medical problems from it... just nothing is going right for him... he doesn't always say stuff.... and I won't let anything happen or anything get to me!!

Beccalynn said...

I'll be praying for you, hun. Just be wise and don't let him get away with anything just cz he's going through a lot. I dont' mean to be negative, I've just had a lot of experience with creepy guys that I let take advantage of me cz "they were going through a lot" and that's just what they were doing, taking advantage of my tender heart. You are so sweet adn I can't imagine you beign mean to anyone, so just remember that defending yourself is not being mean. I'm sorry if I sound preachy

Jen said...

oh I did defend myself and it got him pissed and scared to talk to me! So yeah!!! But whatever! I don't really care anymore!