why is life so hard and complicated!?

I am soo tired and being hurt and "abused" if ya wanna say..... I've just had enough of this life right now... don't really know whats going on. I am livin the moment to moment and thinking what the heck am I doing? nothing.. I don't know what to do.... I feel all I can do is write and cry if I need to... I have a hard time talking about my life... I'd rather be helping someone else than dealing with my own life and problems....Maybe that is good but I don't know. I feel that I am not that important... I don't know... I am at a stage of "i don't know's".... well I will write more later... gotta get lunch ready and have breakfast... and go to work :(.....