To All My Friends!!!

""Today is love your friends day. Send this to all your friends and me if I am 1. If you get 7 back, then you are a TRUE FRIEND....




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.......SEND THiS TO THE PEOPLE......
.............U'LL NEVER 4GET..............
.........ITS A SHORT MESSAGE..........
...........TO LET THEM KNOW.............
......THAT U'LL NEVER 4GET THEM......

...iF U DON'T SEND THiS TO ANYONE...
.......iT MEAN UR'RE iN A HURRY.......
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send this rose to everyone you care about including me if you care. See how many times you get this, if you get a dozen your loved!

A must read!! Rapist on Myspace/AIM/AOL

THERE IS A RAPIST ON MYSPACE
Body: Date: Oct 5, 2006 8:18 AM
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THERE IS A RAPIST ON MYSPACE
WARNING READ!! RAPIST ON MYSPACE LOOK OUT

please read.... not a joke....
State police warning for online: Please read this "very carefully"..then send it out to all the people online that you know. Something like this is nothing to be taken casually; this is something you DO want to pay attention to.

If a person with the screen-name of jokerkid613/Ja$on MoNeY contacts you, do not reply. DO NOT talk to this person; do not answer any of his/her instant messages or e-mail. Whoever this person may be, he/she is a suspect for murder in the death of 56 women (so far) contacted through the Internet. Please send this to all the women on your buddy list and ask them to pass this on, as well. This screen-name was seen on Yahoo, AOL, AIM, and Excite so far. This is not a joke! Please send this to men too...just in case! Send to everyone you know! Ladies, this is serious.
Gentlemen, PLEASE let your Lady Friends know....

Jennifer S. Faulkner
Education/Information Specialist Roanoke Fire-EMS
541 Luck Avenue
Suite 120 Roanoke, VA 24016
540) 853-2257 (phone)
540) 853-1172 (fax)

IF WE CAN PASS ON JOKES, SURELY WE CAN PASS ON A WARNING THAT MAY SAVE A FRIENDS LIFE

For all of you!! love you my friends!

To: YOU
Date: Today
From: God
Subject: YOURSELF
Reference: LIFE
I am God. Today I will be handling all of your problems. Please remember that I do not need your help. If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it. Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. All situations will be resolved, but in My time, not yours. Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now.
- If you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don't despair. There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.
- Should you have a bad day at work; Think of the man who has been out of work for years.
- Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.
- Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.
- Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance; Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.
- Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror; Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.
- Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.
- Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; Remember, things could be worse. You could be one of them!
- Should you decide to send this to a friend; Thank you, you may have touched their life in ways you will never know!

life is looking up...

Hey friends! I am doing better then I was before.... I had kind of a crappy weekend but it got better.... I think it is manily me that is the problem... I always let things get to me and then it "floods" my mind. And then I can't get it out of my head. And I have found that I don't go to God first.. I usually ask people to pray for me not that thats wrong but I should be looking to God through everything first and foremost! I love going to the Bridge and just being in fellowship with other Christians especially girls!!! I am meeting so many great new people!! I am starting really forgive myself for all that has happened to me... I have totally stopped talking to that guy I was saying who was talking sexually to me. I had had enough of him and it built up to the point where I couldn't completely function with thoughts of hurting myself.... because of all that stuff he said and just with everything that was happening... I feel soooooo much better not talking to him. He really pissed me off and just put me in a bad mood. Especially last Thursday when he called me while in the hospital and talked for like a straight 10 minutes without me talking and all.... and I was with a friend. And I said that and he said well ya could have told me that! And hung up.. I was like thats it!! Turns out he's not having the surgery now b/c he got into a fight with the doctors and actually got kicked out of the hospital!!!!! haha!!! don't know how that happened but yeah! Sorry i am liking switching colors when I write my blogs! I hope you enjor the colors! heeeheee!! God is definitley stretching and growing me!!! Sunday and today have been good days for me!! Today I worked at 10-6:30 and it wasn't too bad... kinda busy and then slow at times... I didn't really have any negative thoughts today which is good b/c I was just happy and not really caring about anything.... I like most of the people I work with including the managers.... I like to joke around and stuff... make it a little fun/interesting... My managers say I am the "Credit Queen"... so far this month I have opened 14 credit apps for customers.... in one day I opened 8!!! Today I opened 3. It makes me feel good when I get them b/c they get really happy and all.... and they are not down our throats.... lol!! I went to have dinner with Ruth at her house with Sophia and another of ruth's friends.... we had tacos and stuff... its was gooooooodddddd!!!! I love taco salads!! She gave me some for lunch tomorrow!!! And now I am really really happy!!!!! So yeaah!!! Hope all is well with everyone!! Love ya all!!!!

Hey my beautiful friends!!!! God is just awesome and amazing!!! I am just sooo happy happy happy!!!! I obviously can't contain myself right now!!! haha! Although the first part of my weekend wasn't the best it ended great!!! Im alive and well!!!! I have God, I have family, I have friends.... what more could a girl ask for?! Bridge tonight at Kerr Park was auhmazing!!!!!!!!!!!! Really really really really awesome! Just what I needed!!! There was a slight breeze and it was God telling me that He was there and wrapping his arms around me and telling me that everything is and will be ok and to trust in Him!!!!!! There was also a bird flying and just flew higher and higher in the sky! One thing I have been praying about is to see God in the small things and to be open to Him showing me himself! Well how about that?! During church at CFC this morning and at Bridge when I close my eyes during worship I see a girl dancing her heart out for Jesus! I am just sooo excited for what God has for me this next year and the years to come.... I just need to learn to trust Him with EVERYTHING and all parts of my life and not "beat around the bush" and take back my regrets and all..... wow that was a long run on... haha oh well!! im not in English class.. heheh!!! but yeah! God is awesome! I love him with my whole being!!!! God bless you all!!!!!!!!! GO EAGLES!! THEY WON BABY!!!! hahaha sorry!!!

update on my blog from earlier!!!!!

Just a quick update from my blog earlier today.... I am doing better than I was earlier.... I know I definitley overreact a lot of the time. I just get so over worked about differenet things.. I spent from 5-10 reading my bible at Barnes & Noble..... I actually go there a lot to read and just relax. It is so calming there. I love it! I am at peace right now. I am thankful for everything that I have. Most people don't have anything and I have a roof over my head, a computer which I can have in my room, a comfortable bed, a fan, A/C, a small flat screen tv, a cell phone, a nice car, good friends, clothing on my back... and I could go on and on!! This day has got me thinking more about others instead of myself... yes it started out about me.. but I shouldn't be worrying about anything!! Here is a verse in which I really like especially right now!! Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7.And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. How awesome is that?! We don't have to worry about anything!! God is sooo awesome!!! My heart is happy and light!!! I don't know why I was so dramatic... I just got wrapped up in everything!! God bless you all! Love you all!!

not doing too good....

My life right now is a roller coaster... thats the best way to explain it! I will be fine for a while maybe a two days or so but yeah... Then I just am not myself... I hear someone say something or someone talks to me and then I start degrading myself and really beating myself up over most of the time nothing! Then I will talk with a friend and it helps and then bam again the cycle begins again! Why why why why?!?!?! I don't know and I don't understand! I wish someone would just come and kill me right now and put me out of my misery! Im sorry I am talking like this right now but it is the way I feel right now. I can't stand hearing people fight about anything and then put me in the arguement oh heck no!!!!!! Im sorry I just can't handle anything right now... I feel like I need to run away or something.. I don't have anywhere to go and I don't have the money or anything... i need a break from life... im so tired... i just want everything to stop!! i dont want/can't pretend everything is ok. when it is not!! My world, my everything is crumbling down!! I just needed some place to right down everything.... im sure in a day or two ill be better than i am right now!

why is life so hard and complicated!?

I am soo tired and being hurt and "abused" if ya wanna say..... I've just had enough of this life right now... don't really know whats going on. I am livin the moment to moment and thinking what the heck am I doing? nothing.. I don't know what to do.... I feel all I can do is write and cry if I need to... I have a hard time talking about my life... I'd rather be helping someone else than dealing with my own life and problems....Maybe that is good but I don't know. I feel that I am not that important... I don't know... I am at a stage of "i don't know's".... well I will write more later... gotta get lunch ready and have breakfast... and go to work :(.....

frustrated!!

Hey all! Why do guys have to be such a's????? I don't understand what it is with me and perverted guys..... All I want is to please God and not anything else. I don't want a relationship right now. And this guys says he is attracted to me... and keeps saying stuff when he knows darn well I don't like it!!! Guys piss me off! I am getting the impression that I am bad luck when it comes to relationships.... I don't really care about it... It just makes me feel really uncomfortable and disgusted.... like I wanna go hid under a rock and not come out!!

On another note.... everything else is going pretty well. I have been at Kohls for a year now! Nothing really bad has happened except with that Jen girl who was stealing money from us... still haven't gotten my money back yet!!! But yeah... nothing really new is going on besides the darn guy problems.... but anywho..... I just want to focus on God and trust in Him. I have been doing really well with my feelings of myself. On Sunday, I went to get a water from 7 eleven before going to Bridge and as I was walking in I was like I feel pretty and I feel good about myself... I didn't have bad thoughts/wasn't "condeming" myself for the crap that has happened... I didn't even care what people thought of me! I am still feeling like this off and on this week... but with the guy issue it has made it a little hard... So yeah! If you could pray for me that would be good.... I miss you all! Love you!

reflections of the summer

Things have been going pretty good!! I am understanding how much God loves me and its just so awesome to be reminded of it. I am in a bible study on Wed. nights and it has just been so awesome. It is Beth Moores "Breaking Free" and Had read some of it before in another bible study but didn't read it all. Now I re-read it and am so excited more than I was when I first started reading it! I am understanding it also... which helps! :-D hehe!! This summer has been tuff at times and then it will good and then back to hard times.... lately I am learning how to trust more in God and just give him EVERYTHING! Give him My all!! And through that I am able to trust more people and open up to others... especially in my bible study. I am usually the quiet one and just keep to myself and lately I have been able to just talk about like what the chapters have said to me and just be able to be grown and stretched.... It's awesome! I am more comfortable with talking about stuff that has happened to me in the past and things that have happened to me lately. And ya know I am starting to not care about what people say about me! It doesn't matter!!!! I am a beautiful Child of the Lord!!!! I don't even sound like the regular Jen! I don't know who this is!! hehe! I know who it is but ya know what I mean! lol!!! God is awesome!!! Thats my update for the day/week! Love you all! God bless you!!!

hello!!!!!!

Hey all!! Things are going really well!!!! God is good!!! I have been growing and being stretched this past summer!! Its awesome! At times hard but I have been learning and so it's good!!! Nothing really new is going on with me..... just working and hanging out with friends and that kinda thing!! So yeah!!! Not too much else!!! Hope to see ya all soon! Love ya!

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Thats the kind of mood I am in right now after being woken up by my stupid computer aftering falling asleep just about an hour ago.. since i couldn't sleep and all.... oh well mind you I tried go to bed at 12:30 and couldn't sleep say came back on till like 1:30 and tried to fall asleep and did and then computer restarts itself to update a program or something... Well now I can't sleep again and now I don't feel well!! argh!!!

Anyway things have been a little rocky this past week... I am doing good now just tired and not really feeling well! But not complaining... Im gonna try and go back to sleep... will update more later! love to all!

searching

Today has been a pretty good day! Just hanging out as I usually do now on my Sundays since I have off. I go to church usually Calvary Fellowship at 11:30 and then maybe hang out with a friend or not... just have some quiet time and just relax. It feels good to be able to not do too much every Sunday. I was looking/reading the blogs from the missions trip to Kenya with Word FM, and it really is tugging at my heart again that I need to go out and do something. It might just be in the West Chester area but I just feel led to help others mainly kids but anyone! It brought tears to my eyes to read about the children of Africa! I feel that all that has happened to me this past year and half has happened because God made it happen. To break me down and re-grow me and stretch me and change me! Well, I am definitley changing! And now I want to help others change and to be a light to the lost. I want to just do things for others and not expect anything in return not that I ever expect things from my friends. I freely give! That is how God made me!!! Love you all!!!

GOD IS GOOD!!!!!!!

Hey all!!! Well how about that?! Two posts in one night!! Well I am doing pretty darn patutin good right now!!! I am feeling better about the whole guy thing! I am talking on AIM with a friend and a guy... And I was just saying how this whole thing was a blessing in disguise to get me back on track type of thing! Kind of like a kick in the butt! This whole thing has brought me closer to friends and helping me to be in the word! I am trying to think better... and not "bash" myself or so stupid non-sense!!! Which can be hard but I can do it with the help of my friends!! So if you are with me or see me and I am saying stuff that is degrading be like Jen what are ya saying??? Keep me accountable for that and correct for me!!! I am really starting change and it is amazing and I feel good!! I am happy actually!!! I am realizing I don't need a guy in my life and God may not want me to be married who knows.... that is a long time from now! I am not thinking about that now! I want to live for God and only him!!!!! GOD IS SOOOO GOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God bless you all! Love you!

So yeah I had dinner with a guy friend of mine and we were waiting to be seated and all... and there was a rainbow! I haven't seen a rainbow in so long!! Well that was kind of a ramble! Have a good night! God loves ya and so do I!!

updates

Recently that is all I have been posting about.... well... Im sorry for not really blogging all that much. I get busy and tired and at times I just don't feel like typing.... So yeah! Things are getting better, but I am still struggling so if you could continue to pray that would be really awesome! I love you all!! I don't know if I have mention that to you guys lately! I appreciate our friendship!! Things have been busy and stressful! The guy situation is over and I do not talk to that guy anymore. He was not definitley not the right guy for me! He made me do things I didn't really want to do..... it was kinda like "peer pressure" in a way... he kinda talked me into it..... but yeah thats over and as I had said I felt stupid and cheated! I didn't feel like I deserved to be anything or do anything. I am starting not think like that anymore.... I just felt really bad and I felt like hiding in a way.... like I was robbed of all my joy and love... like when you are raped. Kind of like that. I am doing better but I am not completely healed of the feelings. I have learned a lot and am trying to just talk about it and not keep everything bottled up inside... What is that going to do?? it will make things worse not better..... Well, I will blog soon again! Love you all!! Thanks for being my friends! And thanks for helping me along the way in the different ways that you help!

updates................

Hey friends! Sorry I haven't really talkative on here and on phone if you have called me or I call you. As you know if you read my latests blogs, I have been going through some crap. Things are getting better. Some of you read the blog where I said I guy like me from aol im... well thats over and I really don't care anymore about him.He just like made me do things I wouldn't normally do and he hurt me like emotionally. I do not need that. I deserve better. All i can say is this has been good b/c I have be praying and reading the bible more. I have gotten closer to God through this. Please be praying for me! Love you all! It has definitley been a learning experience for me.....

need prayers!!!

I don't want to go into but I just need prayers for strength and courage and for healing....... I think I went to far and did something stupid...... thats all im gonna say!

sorry......

After re-reading my post from last night.. i feel like I need to apologize! I was just really tired and upset and all. I am doing better. i have been able to talk with some of my friends and all which have been nice. About the comment I said about my friend talk to me about guys and stuff... well it doesn't really bother me in a way b/c I don't know. yeah I have never been in a relationship with any guys that doesn't mean I don't know anything ya know? So yeah that was kinda stupid of me. Just so you guys all know................................................ are ya ready for this?! there's a guy that i have been talking to online for a couple of days now and he likes me... so who knows! I'll be posting updates more on this later! Right now I gotta get ready for work! Love you all!!

ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

That is my mood right now! I am so frazzeled and going into pieces at the moment! Things are getting to me.... like friends problems and whatnot.... emotional stuff and feelings. I am going through a lot at the moment. And I kinda don't know how to talk about it and don't know if I want to... I have talked to some people. But I am really stressed not by work though.... and I feel depressed... like I want to talk to certain people and then I kind of feel "blown" off in a way. I know thats not really what it is... thats how it feels to me though. Like last night after the Bridge and all I just felt alone and stuff. I usually stay and talk with people till around 10:30 but not last night. I left at like 10 and want to Appetites with a girl I went to high school with and we ended up sitting with these three guys.... Sometimes I just feel like I need to be alone and all. That was last night, but I couldn't be alone.... I couldn't sleep last night. I had a pain in my stomach and couldn't get comfortable and just had twenty millions things running through my head at once. Then my friend from Bridge was like I wanted to call ya last night but thought it was too late and all.... and ya know I don't care if she did or didn't but I mean she just wanted to talk about guy stuff/problems and what not... well ya know what? I don't give a crap and I really am the wrong person to talk to about that..... but I like that she trusts me about that. And I don't know maybe I am the only one who will really listen to her rant about it... so whatever... i'll keep my mouth shut. Please be praying for me. I want to be healed from my pain and all that is carrying me down!

updates on life

Hey friends! Things have been really busy and that is why I haven't updated recently. Sorry about that! Or when I had the time to I was dead tired! Thank you for praying for me. I feel God is healing me gradually! If you want to know more just send me an email or something. Please continue to pray please. I am doing well. Just been really busy. I have been working a lot but shorter hours since they have been cutting the hours :( I need the hours... I am meeting a lot of great people at the Bridge and at CrossRoads. I am hanging out with more Christians which is also helping me to be stretched and get out of my comfort zone. So God is growing me and God is good!!!! That is all for now! Will update more later! Love you all!