apology

I just wanted to say I am sorry for the way I was typing/talking. I get so angry and upset about things and then things just slip out. I am sorry if it affended anyone! I am becoming a weak person because of working at Boscov's were a lot of people curse frequently and I find myself cursing and I have tried not to curse, but everytime I stop I hear someone else say something and then it gets in my head and do it again. It's kind of like drugs. You get hooked and then you can't stop!!!

Yesterday or the day before, the surgeons office called and confirmed the date for my dad's surgery which is what we were given(Feb. 7) but the have to wait 30 days before to put on the schedule or something like that. I get so upset and sad at different times of the day but not everyday.... only when I starting to think about it or I don't have much going on. I just start tear up and get upset. I don't know who I am upset at. I know I am not upset at God. I know He didn't do anything or if he did he brought the good already! I guess it's just fear and sadness. Well, anyway please keep praying and I will update as soon as I know something new! Love you all!