in a blah mood

Today has been a weird day. My mood has changed a few times. Its like a roller coaster. I think because of all that is and will be happening. I also am feeling a little blue you could say. The day started out fine. I went to be at like 10:30 last night and then I got up at 9:45 ish. And I was the only one home(besides my cat hehe). And that was fine. My mom came home around 11:00 and she drove me to school. I normally drive myself but because of the snow it makes me a little nervous at times being it my first snow storm driving in. My second class Abnormal Psy. got out at 3 and so I called my mom and she was at her office and I had to wait until 3:45 till she got there which was ok. I didn't mind. I told her to take her time. So then she picked me up and then we went o WAWA to get coffee and a New York Times newspaper for my earth science class. My professor wants us to read the Science Times in that newspaper. So I got it. And then we went home. We just hung around and she was making dinner. I called a friend to see if she wanted to hang out but she didn't answer so I left a message. She never called me back. So I called another friend same thing. And so I was like forget about doing something now. And I ate dinner with my family and watched Jeopordy(sp) and then I was checking my email(of course their was nothing) and then my cell rings and its Tricia wanting to know if I wanted to hang out and I said yes. So she came to my house and she brought dunkin donuts. And then we watched American Idol. And obviously talked and she left at around 9:15 ish. Then I was trying to find something to watch on t.v. and I couldn't find anything so I got my Earth Science stuff to do homework. And I am almost done. I also cleaned my bathroom floor... don't ask why?! I don't even know myself. And that got me really warm in the middle of winter.... so right now in my room I have my fan turned on low. I have been feeling very weird lately. Not sick wise, but emotional. I guess because of my dad's surgery coming up it has gotten me messed up emotionally. At unexpected times I will just start thinking about it and start tearing up. One of my other parts of my mood is I feel lonely like no one wants to do anything with me. I know people are busy and all but I really love to hang out with people and its a way for me to get to know people better and the fact that I have never had a date or boyfriend. I find it hard and I feel so... I don't know! empty i guess. I feel like I am just a joke. no guy wants to have a relationship with me and I am not pretty enough. I don't feel attractive. I just find it really hard right now since you see couples all over the place and Valentines Day coming up. I just feel lonely I guess. The Winter Blues. Anyway I am sorry for blabbing on and on. Good night!