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A Rosebud

A young, new priest was walking with an older, more seasoned priest in the garden one day. Feeling a bit insecure about what God had for him to do, he was asking the older priest for some advice. The older priest walked up to a rose bush and handed the young priest a rosebud and told him to open it without tearing any of the petals. The young priest looked in disbelief at the older priest and was trying to figure out what a rosebud could possibly have to do with his wanting to know the will of God for his life and ministry. But, because of his great respect for the older priest, he proceeded to try and unfold the rosebud while keeping every petal intact. . It wasn't long before he realized how impossible this was to do. Noticing the young priest's inability to unfold the rosebud without tearing it, the older priest began to recite the following poem:
It is only a tiny rosebud A flower of God's design; But I cannot unfold the petals With these clumsy hands of mine. The secret of unfolding flowers Is not known to such as I. GOD opens this flower so sweetly, Then, in my hands, they die. If I cannot unfold a rosebud, The flower of God's design, Then how can I have the wisdom To unfold this life of mine? So, I'll trust in Him for leading Each moment of my day. I will look to Him for His guidance Each step of the Pilgrim's way The pathway that lies before me Only my Heavenly Father knows. I'll trust him to unfold the moments, Just as He unfolds the rose.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, and an entire lifetime to forget them. Send this message to the people you will never forget, and remember to send it also to the person who sent it to you. It's a short message to let them know that you'll never forget them. If you don't send it to anyone, it means you're in too much of a hurry. Take the time to LIVE!!! Distance and time may separate us, but friendship will never die...

Isn't It Strange

Isn't it strange how a 20 dollar bill seems like such a large amount when you donate it to church, but such a small amount when you go shopping?
Isn't it strange how 2 hours seem so long when you're at church, and how short they seem when you're watching a good movie?
Isn't it strange that you can't find a word to say when you're praying,but you have no trouble thinking what to talk about with a friend?
Isn't it strange how difficult and boring it is to read one chapter of the Bible, but how easy it is to read 100 pages of a popular novel?
Isn't it strange how everyone wants front-row-tickets to concerts or games, but they do whatever is possible to sit in the last row in Church?
Isn't it strange how we need to know about an event for Church 2-3 weeks before the day so we can include it in our agenda, but we can adjust it for other events in the last minute?
Isn't it strange how difficult it is to learn a fact about God to share it with others, but how easy it is to learn, understand,extend and repeat gossip?
Isn't it strange how we believe everything that magazines and newspapers say, but we question the words in the Bible?
Isn't it strange how everyone wants a place in heaven, but they don't want to believe, do, or say anything to get there?
Isn't it strange how we send jokes in e-mails and they are forwarded right away,but when we are going to sendmessages about God, we think about it twice before we share it with others?
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update

Hey all! I am sorry for not updating recently. It has been really busy. Some of you know if not most of you know I do not work at Boscov's anymore. Thats a long story in itself. But I am glad I don't have to be used as much and upset as much. I really screwed up but we all have to live and learn and learn from our mistakes, which is what I am doing and I need daily reminders of this frequently! A lot has been going on. I have been busy looking for a new job. I am meeting this lady and her kids on Wednesday in hopes of babysitting/nanny for her 2 kids. If you guys wouldn't mind praying for me this week. I really need to find a job and quick. In time I will tell all of you the reason I am not working at Boscov's, but right now I can't because of a few reasons. One, I don't feel like talking about it, two I can't talk about it to many people. If you already know please don't say anything b/c I have been kicking myself in the butt for a while now! And I am so mad at myself! But anyway! Life goes on and then you die! I will talk to you all later! Love you all! Take care!!!

PRAYER!!!!!!!!

I did something incredibly stupid and now I got fired from Boscov's. I don't/can't talk about it right now. Let's just say I did something stupid and didn't know what the I was doing. I just need prayer and a miracle. Will talk later!

Nikki and Allen,
I hope you have a very safe trip to the USA! Take care and I can't wait to see you guys! Love ya!
Jen

updates

Hey all! Sorry for not posting in a long while. A lot has been going on. Things are pretty good. Busy but other than that fine. I think I have already told most of you our kitchen and laundry room are done! It was kind of a pain because we couldn't really "cook". We also could not wash our clothes here because we didn't have our dish washer. We had to wash our dishes in the bathroom sink so therefore we didn't use many dishes like silverware or plates or cups. My mom had to bring our dirty clothes to the laundromat. Which was a pain for her because she is a busy lady! It took like 2-3 hrs I think to get our laundry done. And for some reason the dryer didn't dry our clothes all the way. Oh well. Nothing we can do about that. School is/has been done for 2 weeks or so now! Thank God! I already said I failed math, but you know I don't really care that much! Work is the same old thing. I get so pissed at some of the people their at times. Other times its like different and most of us get along. I don't know... all I can say is Welcome back to high school folks!!!! I swear it is just like hs with all the people talking behind your back. I know you get that any where. Well, I guess thats about it. Thank God summer is on it's way! I can't wait until my pool is open so I can go swimming!!!!!!! Love you all!

Need serious Pray.

Today I was driving and I went to Main Street with two of my friends, and when we were on the way home my steering wheel started to lock up on my when I was turning so I have to like work at the turn. And this light with this battery thing is on and I don't know what that means. I am like really scared!!!!!! I don't know what is wrong. Does anyone know what this means? I am afraid that it means my car is going to die soon. Any suggestions? Hope everyone is well!

Prayers

I have a few prayer requests! One is for finals this week. I had my Science one today and I have World Religion tomorrow and then Wed. (laura) and I have math and Thursday I have Abnormal Psy. which is my last final. I do not test well. Even if I study I blank out and forget everything I studied. My second request is for getting a new job. I went to The Mustard Seed today and got an application. I really want a new job. Obviously, b/c I won't have to work Sunday's which are often one of the busiest days. I think this is the perfect job right now for me. And another one is that I get rid of this cold... I don't even know how I got it. Well, thats all for now. Hope everyone is doing well!!!!! I love you all!

Shout out to Nikki

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKKI!!!! I hope you have a wonderful birthday!!!! May God bless you today and always!!!!!!!!!!! Love you lots!!! Take care!!!! Happy B-day!

semi-busy week

The next couple of weeks are going to be pretty busy I think. As I said in my previous blog I have my last week of classes this week and then finals next week. I am always busy on Thursday's as most of you know. I have class 12-3:30 on Thursday and then I go straight to CrossRoads to set-up. And I don't get home until like 11 at night sometimes. And then I will be working Friday and Saturday 3 till close. Exhausting but at least its not the shift from last week starting at 1 which is even more exhausting. Oh well. And I think I have off on Sunday since I worked this past Sunday, but who knows. I am probably going to get to see my grandmom and aunt if I have off and have dinner with them and then go to the Bridge at 7:30. I hope I will be able to see my grandmom! She is an awesome person and she spoils me... lol!!! I just felt like writing more so I blogged twice today. Well, I am running out of things to type. So I will end this now! more later! Love ya all!!!!

May already?!?!

As my title says May already! I can not believe how fast this semester has gone, not that I am not happy!!!!!!!! Its been one heck of a semester let me tell you! I wish I was done, but I am not. This is my last week of classes! Praise the Lord! And then next week I have finals. I have a question/ want opinion on something. One of my professors he invites his classes to The Winner's Circle next Friday. Do you think that is right for a teacher to do this? He's a really cool guy and very relaxed in his teaching. Let me know what you guys think. My weekend was pretty good. I worked most of it. I went to the Bridge on Sunday. I am loving the Bridge as always! Nothing is really new with me right now! I will talk to you all later! Love ya!

Weekend

Hey all! My weekend was pretty good! I worked on Friday 1:30 till close and then I like crashed after that! I was totally drained and tired it was not even funny! I had Saturday and Sunday off from work!! It was so much fun. I have not had off both days in like such a while!!!!! I just relaxed a lot of it. Saturday morning I went to my church and saw some of my moms CCD class get their 1st Communion which was sooooo cute! Their were two girls I knew and both of them because I have babysat them and one of them lives in my neighborhood. And then I hung out with my friend Katrin and her boyfriend and we went out to eat at Appittites on Main and then we went back to her house and played Dutch Blitz and her parents were watching a movie called Cellcular it was a creepy movie but it was pretty good. And then I went home around 11:30. On Sunday I didn't really do much. I worked on math and my math test. Bridge went two services which is really neat. But it was confusing also because we weren't sure when to go in and all because the Bridge band was still playing. But it was really neat! The only thing I really didn't like is that we get out late and then we are very limited to were to go out to grab a bite to eat. So that was my weekend! It was fun but it was more relaxing than anything. I think I definitley needed a relaxing weekend. I will talk to you all later! Love ya all!

nothing new

Hey my wonderful and beautiful friends! I just felt like typing a little sumthin for yas!!!! hehehe! No, I am not on anything! I just felt like talking/typing that way! I don't have that much time because I am at school and my next class starts in like 20 minutes. As my title says there's nothing really new happening with me. My kitchen is finished PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!! No more drilling and banging!!!! YIPPY!!!! The semester is almost done thank God! I can't wait until summer! I am soooo tired of doing everything school related. I am soo tired right now. But oh well! I am almost done. Hope everyone has a wonderful day and a wonderful weekend! If anyone is available to do something this weekend let me know!!!! I actually have off Saturday and Sunday!!!!! Well ttyl!!! I hope to see some of you at CrossRoads tonight!!! If not, I will be thinking of you! Love you all! Take care!!!!!

my weekend and Bridge

Hey my loving friends! This past week and weekend have definitley been a trial!!!! I had to work and it was not fun!!! On Friday I actually was suppose to have off, but because of my other co-worker having a cyst in her leg she is not able to work for a while. So needless to say I had to work for her. It wouldnt have been as big a deal, but its like every time I am scheduled off for some reason or another I always have to work. It was crazy busy and of course I was by myself for the night and it sucks because it would bec0me busy sporadically! Then, I was hoping to have to work on Sunday and then I was like no I don't want to work because I had a 5 page paper due today(Monday). As it turns out, I was not scheduled to work! Praise the Lord! I was going to go to Christ Community Church at 10:30 but that never happened b/c I know myself well enough to get down to buisness and to start writing/typing my paper. It's a good thing I did not go because it took a LONG time to write it. I always wasn't feeling up to sitting b/c I had cramps and all so I was feeling a little nause. I worked on my paper from 10 till about 4:45(with breaks in between. I was debating about going to the Bridge and I was like I really need/want to go and be in fellowship with other Christians my age and with people who love me for me and to worship the greatest thing that has ever happened to me!!!! I went and boy was I glad I went!!!! Charles Deza and Michelle and there band sang/performed and they did an awesome job! The sermon was on sex. I was like ummm ok then! But it was interesting. Phil makes everything funny and it was funny how he said stuff. Then at the end this lady and guy named Adam told us their testimony. Adam's was really awesome! It hit me in a way that I could relate to some of what he has gone through. He was sexually abused as a child(teen not sure) and I was also. I know I haven't told most of you but I am at the point where I just don't care anymore. I need to surrender it to God in order for my to really be healed. And Adam also said how he felt like a failure at times well I know I feel like that also and it hurts sometimes. While he was speaking he got choked up a couple of times and he was tearing up and it made me start crying. I have a tendency to cry when others are crying... God was definitley speaking through him for many reasons and I think one was to help me trust him. There was an awesome worship time afterward and after the first song on the second set Adam and the other girl got baptized.. It was awesome. After the worship was over we stayed a little while. I felt funny. I wasn't myself. And others noticed and I was like Im fine, im just tired. We went to UNO's and I wasn't really "there". more in a minute.........

continued Bridge....

While we were deciding on where to go and all, I didn't really want to go to Uno's. I wasn't acting my normal self. I am not sure what was wrong with me, but I had a heavy heart and I was just thinking about a lot of stuff especially about what Adam said and Jeff dying and life. I don't know why but I wasn't really in the mood for pizza.. I have never been there before so I didn't know they had other stuff so yeah. While we were at Uno's I wasn't feeling very well(cramps and finger hurt -blood blister), but I stayed b/c I didn't feel like going home and working on the paper just yet. So we stayed till close to 11 o'clock and then I went home. At the restruant I was still not myself. And everyone knew it too. I am like an open boook! So I just said i was ok, just tired which was partly true. Then we went our seperate ways. I then went home and worked till I couldn't see straight pretty much. I finally got done at 2 am. Man was I tired!!!!! While I was finishing writing my paper I was talking to people on AIM and one of those people was Lynette and I was telling her about how Adam's words impacted me and how I was sexually abused as a kid and all. She was very caring and loving and it helped me even though its kind of hard to tell over an instant message. She said something I told her a little bit ago that really helped me! She said that God is carrying me now and he has been and that I have to trust in him(in a nut shell). Although, Lynette and most of my other friends don't get to hang out that often we still have great talks and relate better to each other. Lynette I love you babe! Thanks again! Probably if I hadn't been talking online, I might have gotten done writing my paper earlier, but I was kind of having a writers block. What more can you say about the weather????? And it had to be 5 FULL pages and if it wasn't 5 full pages we would get an automatic F! How unfair is that?????? Oh well! But I finally finished it and it is turned in now! I didn't want to make this soooooo long but sometimes it just happens and you can't do anything about it!!! As Becca said this is a place were we can just lay out our hearts pretty much and I definitley agree because I can't tell most people about my life in person... sometimes I can and I am getting better talking with others about problems I face and all. Well, Im going to go to bed before I fall asleep at the computer desk!!!!! lol! I love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PRAYERS!!!!

Hey to all my friend! Last night(not sure what time) a lady from my work, her house had caught on fire and her mom didn't make it. Please be praying for her family. The lady I work with her name is Christina and she was really close with her mom. They lived together in Philadelphia. Boscov's is going to be raising money for Christina. I think I am going to talk to Scott and see if we can raise money also. Christina was working last night and she does not drive so she has to take the bus. Sometimes she will leave at 9:15 instead of 9:45 and I am not sure what time she left last night(i wasn't working then) but she probably got home right in the middle of everthing. I heard the she has a sister that lives near here, but they do not get along. She was suppose to work today but obviously she didn't work. It is soooo sad. Please keep Christina in your prayers! And don't take life for granted! God may just have other plans for your life!!!!!! I love you all!

Friday

Hey all, again I am sorry for not posting in a while! I think I think others blogs faster than I post on my own!!! Thats really sad! There's not a whole lot going on with me. Our kitchen and laundry room are almost finished. When you see it you will be like what the heck?! It looks totally totally different!!!!!! They are putting up the tile/blacksplash I think its also called. And then they are pretty much finished!!!! There isnt anything else really going on right now!! So I will talk to you all later! Hope everyone is doing well! Love you lots!

stinky days

Hey to all my friends! Hope everyone is doing well! I am once again sorry for not updating frequently as I use to, but with people working at my house it is kind of difficult..... not to mention today was a stinky day literally!!!!! About 9 this morning my cat(toonces) gets sprayed by a skunk and so my mom brought toonces in through the front door to the back porch because she thought he was dying because his eyes where watering and he was foaming at the mouth.... He wasn't dying! He was just reacting to being sprayed directly in the face!!!! So, not to mention it stunk up the WHOLE house and it still smells in some places! Its not fun! I was really nausuated by the smell this morning. I was like I have to get out of this house. Our kitchen has been making progress!!! A lot of the cabinets are in and it looks more like a kitchen... Once it is finished I will let you guys come see it if you want to... the cabinets are made by the amish... our whole kitchen and laundry room will be done by the amish!!! Very good quality! Update on the boy situation..... if you guys have been wondering nothing really has been happening with that.... We basically have been talking and thats it. I am just trying to get to know him and be his friend first and if God wants something else to happen between us He will allow it!!!! I am going to get going now because let me tell you I am EXHAUSTED!!!!! I went to bed at 1:30 and got up at 6:30 then 7:30 and then for good at 9. So I am falling asleep at the computer! ttfn! Lots of love!

Good news

My dad is doing great!!!! Praise the Lord!!!! He had two doctors appointments. One was with the surgeon and that was Monday and then Tuesday was with his cardiologist. The surgeon said that he is able to drive short distances..... And it has only been a month!!!!!!! How awesome is that??? So everything is going really well with that! Our kitchen is still a mess but they were able to get the floor down in 3 days(Wed., Thursday and Friday). I am not sure when it will actually be done. But I can tell you right now I am not liking this...... I going out a lot more because of it. And I have been getting up at 8:30 compared to 10:00 everyday and then I just get sooo wiped out from the day. They said it might take longer than they thought. My parents aren't going to Mrtyle Beach this year and they always go. And so everything is messed up now! I was going to have a friend come over. Oh well. Its not like I can't still do something..... Anyway that kind of frustrated me when I found out about that, but ya know it makes sense because if he needs to rest they will have to go back to their room and just relax. It is a golfing trip. So anywho on with more stuff. I am going to have dinner with Brad which is the guy who likes me from work. We are going to go to the food court. I think that is really good first "date"/getting to know someone. I will let you guys know what happens and all. Please pray for me... I have never been on a date! Well, ttfn! Love you alls!!!!!

sad times...

Hey all! This weekend one of my mom's co-workers has passed away. He has been sick for a little while and then he died on Saturday. He was at the Chester County Hospital. His name is Jay. Please pray for his family. And also for my mom's work because he was their for a while. Two people went to visit him like 2 weeks ago or so and they said he didn't like that great. The doctor's didn't know what was causing him to be sick. He is in a better place now. I don't know if the doctor's figured out what was wrong or not. Well.... I guess he lived a good life. He died at age 70. Thats all for now folks.... hehe

need advice

Hey all! Sorry again that I haven't written in a while. I am just so busy with school and all. I do check everyone's everyday though I just find it hard to write everyday sometimes. I really need your advice!!! I just found out today at work from another co-worker that another co-worker is interested in me. I don't know how to feel. He has told her(like two weeks ago) that I am pretty and my eyes are pretty and I had gotten a make-over from the cosmetics person one time and he had said i looked really pretty. As I have told some of you before I have never been in a relationship with anyone and I don't know what to say or do. We including the one who told me are probably going to go out to dinner one time and all. I guess this is God's timing for me? I don't know. I am kind of nervous. I know who he is and I talk to him and he is nice. If it is God's will for my life right now, than He will allow me to start a relationship with him. Do any of you have any advice for me? I will let you know updates on this.

updates

Hey all! I think everyone hasn't been updating there blogs that frequently! It is a very busy time of the year right now with school and work and everything. So I am sorry(also) for not posting in a while. I have a ever said that I don't like snow and I am tired of it. Things at home are rough right now. And they will just get even rougher. We are getting our kitchen re-done. We have a new refidgerator(sp?) and we just put everything in their today. My mom has already been taking the stuff in the kitchen and put them in boxes and put them downstairs. Everything will be a mess pretty soon. They start on Monday. It was suppose to be last week but they had to push it back another week which is actually really good with Kevin recovering and all. Kevin is doing very well. He has been out and about picking out stoves and all. He gets tired but he's doing really good. He has been using those wheel chair things when they go out to look at stuff for the kitchen. He had a doctors appointment on Tuesday and they said everything looks good. So, that is definitley a praise!!! Please continue to pray for us. We will have a lot of people coming in and out of our house for the next 3 weeks probably. But the end result will be really cool!!!! My brothers are coming tomorrow and moving the old fridge down to the basement and move the kitchen table and do other lifting stuff!! yippy! No more eating in the kitchen. We will be eating in our living room which has the new refridgerator(sp?) and its also were our fusball table is... I have to work tonight 5-9:45 and then I was suppose to have off tomorrow but last Sunday my manager called and asked me if I could work 12-6 and I said ok whatever...... Not that I really want to, but the extra money will be nice. I am also probably going to get yelled at tomorrow(yippy) not..... Stacey our manager said not to open coats to Angie last Wednesday and then to me last Friday she tells me I am working in coats and Angie was in dresses. I told Angie Friday night and she gets really ticked off and tells me to call her on her cell so I did. And she tells me that Stacey told her not to open coats. Well, I come in Sunday morning at 9:30 and one of the store managers comes down and says that angie has to work in Petites at 3:45(she came in at 11)... So we were like we are not opening coats since she had to go to Petites at 3:45... 4 hours of having coats open?? thats kind of dumb to have it open. This past Monday Angie gets yelled at for not opening it by another co-worker.... big long story... Needless to say I am not very happy going in today or tomorrow. Talk to you all later!!!! Love you all! Hope you are doing well!

math problems

As most of you know, I do not like math at all. I am struggling again with Math for Edu. majors. I am starting worry that I am not in the right field of study. I know I can be wrong, but I don't know. Please pray for me for this. I am going to be praying also. I failed a test I took tonight and I am so pissed at myself. I don't test well, but that's not really an excuse. Oh well. My teacher was like maybe you should take it during a class that has it twice a week that way your not just looking at it Wednesday night and then again like Tuesday night and Wednesday during the day. That might be what I need to do. I wish I could have the same teacher I had last semester but she can't teach this... she's not certified to teach anything higher than 060 which is like pre-algebra. So ya.... that is my concern right now. Update on my dad: He is doing very well! He got the mail on Tuesday. He has been walking around. Doing computer work for his buisness(sp). We have a outpatient nurse that comes and checks on him she came Sunday and a different nurse came Tuesday and then the same nurse is coming Friday I think. So far she has said everything is great. And that it is a miracle that they found the anerysm!! We already knew that though!!!! hehe! When I know something new I will let you guys know! I love you all and thank you sooooo much for praying for us. We really really appreciate it!

Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day to all of you! It's another Valentine's by myself... oh well! Guess Im not special enough! lol! Just kidding! I know I am special but not in that way to most guys. I guess that God doesn't want me to have any relationships with guys yet and that's fine, but it does get a little lonesome and tiring. I am going to a Valentine's Day party. This will be interesting..... I have never been to a V-day party besides elementary school(miss those days hehehe). I know 3 people who have their birthday's today. So Happy Birthday Becca, Mom, and my Aunt Moe(dad's sister)!!!!! It is so hard to find cards that are both Valentine's and Birthday all in one. In the Giant shopping center where Hallmark is I found 3 cards that were both and they weren't that good. I am not that fond of V-day either. I think it is a weird day. Most couples are going to do stuff that they don't think they will do b/c it is Valentine's Day. Or that they wouldn't normally do...... But yeah... I guess I will feel like this until someone sweeps me off my feet! Well, for all the love birds have a great time together! And everyone have a Happy Valentines Day! Happy birthday Becca!!!!! Love you all!

great news!!!!!!!

I have great news!!!! My dad is home from the hospital!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!! Please pray for a fast recovery and that he will continue to get better everyday! He didn't sleep that well last because they brought another guy into the same room and the guy had a rough night and was doing to good. Please pray also for my brother Kevin becuase he can be the biggest pain in the you know what. He doesn't clean up after himself or if he does it is like much later and he just does whatever he pleases! My mom was at the hospital all day yesterday and when she came home at like 9:30 10 o'clock there was dishes and stuff in the sink and my mom had to do them. Pray that he will be helpful during our dad's recovery. He is staying longer b/c of his surgery. He was going to moving out of the house in to Conshohoken area. Because that is near where he teaches. Well, i hope all of you have a wonderful weekend! I know I am. I got to see my friends last night and we had dinner together. And today I am going over to friends house and hanging out with them! Love you guys!

a good day

Hey all! My dad is doing a lot better! He was doing excercises today at the hospital to get stronger. He did the bicycle and I don't know whatelse he did. But I know it wore him out. I am going to go see him later today... I'm not sure when though. I went to my Earth Science class today and it was sooooooo boring!!!!!! The subject was interesting. We were talking about earthquakes, but the way he teaches it is really boring. We watched a movie and took notes from the over head. I am not going to my math class tonight so I can see my dad because I am going to go to classes tomorrow 12-3:30 and then CrossRoads tomorrow night and so I won't see him till Friday... which might be the day he will be coming home, but if it isn't Friday it will be sometime this weekend!!!!! I think one of the reasons I am soooo tired is because of all the sitting and waiting we had to do.... We just sat there from 6:30-10 on Monday and then 11-3 on Tuesday.... We couldn't see him on Monday that much b/c he had just gotten done the surgery at 9 and he had to put into bed and tucked in... and then as I said before my mom and Mark got to see him but then his blood pressure was high so we couldn't see him and then I went home with my brother Kevin at 10 and then I guess he was stable enough that they could see him again. So we just waited in the waiting room for like hours and you can sit for only so long. My mom couldn't sit b/c she was anxious and couldn't sit still. Well, I will keep you guys updated! Lots of love! And thanks again for the prayers! Keep on praying for a speedy recovery!!!!!

Day 2

My dad is doing a lot better!!!!! Thank you for the prayers.... He is in the home stretch it's just recovery time. My mom called the kids at 6 am and told them great news. She called me at 9 and told me the same. He was awake and they could take the breathing tube out! His color was back to normal. And everything was good! My brother Mark and my sister Michele and I left my house at 10 and got to the hospital at 11 which starts visiting hours. We didn't see my mom or our aunt moe in the waiting room where we were the other night so we checked to see if they were with our dad and they were. He was awake and talking. His hands and feet/legs where a little swollen. He didn't know that they had to replace his valve. He asked the nurse and she didn't know and it was when my mom was in the room and she said yes they did. He looked pretty good. His color looked better. This is the first time I have ever seen him like this and seeing him nervous. All of us were tired this morning especially my brother Mark... he didn't sleep well b/c he wanted to be able to hear the phone incase someone called. They weren't able to do the test to see if he had a stroke, but the nurse said he didn't because she knows how they are if they have had one. So praise the Lord on that!!! They werten't able to test it because he was sleeping or something like that. He was making jokes and acting like his usual self.. Of course he wasn't walking around but my mom misunderstood what he had said because his voice is a whisper practically and he got angry at her... and he wanted her to hold his hand and she didn't understand that and so she laid her hand on his hand. He is doing much better and he will continue to do better everday!!!! Please keep praying for a good recovery!!! And please pray that none of my other family members have this because Dr. Bavarin(the surgeon) said it is hereditary! Well, if you have any other questions ask me!

tears and surgery

Just looking at the subject is what happened tonight! Surgery went fine. The only thing that the surgeon had to do that we knew about, but wasn't sure needed to be done was having to replace the valve because of the stress that the anerysm caused!!! The surgery was obviously going to be a little longer then they had expected. It was pushed back a lot because of the surgery before him. His surgery was scheduled between 11-12 and they didn't start till 3 but really 2:24... they started the anthesia like I said in the other blog. And so they started at 3ish and they had to stop his heart to fix the problem and all. Im sorry but I am exhausted from crying and I need some sleep.... I will finish sometime tomorrow!!! Please continue to pray!!! He is not out of the whole yet!!! Their is a chance he may have a stroke or has already had one and when he wakes up he will try to take the breathing tubes out which is normal! Good night all! I know this is hard but this is the truth in what is happening!!! I have been crying off and on so I am going to go to bed and am going back to the hospital at 10..... and come home around 2:30 or so.... love you all! please keep us in prayer!!!! I am sooo scared and worried and it is scary because I have never seen him like this...... If any of you have seen my dad you know how he is.... He is always cracking a joke or teasing around but he's just lying unconscience in a hospital bed!!!!! more later....

dads surgery

Hey all! Please continue to pray. They had a later start than they thought. They got there at like 8 am. And they had to wait until 11:30 this morning to start stuff. Since they had to wait, my dad took my mom over to the hotel where she will be sleeping tonight and was able to check in and get stuff there and all. Which is good. Then they went back to University of Penn. Hospital and then I guess just waited and checked in and all. Then they didn't get him in till 2:24 and then I just got a call from my mom about 3:50 saying that they just started the anthesia and they will start the surgery. I am not going until 6:30 now..... argh!!! oh well!!!! My brother Mark is coming to get me and my sister Michele is coming here and we will go there at 6:30 or so. It keeps getting pushed back and all. I got to see my grandmom and aunt and they are here now..... so I better get going!!! I will try and update as soon as I know something! Like I said before if you want to know anything let me know... give me a call on my cell!!! Love you all! Please keep praying!!!! Surgery is on right now I think......

weekend

My weekend was pretty good..... other than the fact the Eagles choked once again!!!!! Dumb Eagles at least they tried. But they just didn't play like they wanted to win. But anyway!!!! Work was pretty good on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Friday I got a little present from a customer that my manager, another co-worker and I had helped the day after New Years. It was a cute mug that had bugs on it and it said "quit bugin me".And then Friday I got my hair cut. I had to go back to get it re-done into what "i really wanted". My co-worker deb was like they didn't do anything to it. So she was like go back and get it re-done. And I was like whatever. She called the place and acted like me and said I wasn't happy with it and it wasn't what I wanted. They charged me for a $7 blow dry which is totally unfair b/c when I went back to Boscov's my hair was still damp. So I went back and she cut more off... gave me bangs, and layers in my hair. It is starting to grow on me. But it is a little short. And deb was like next time go a little shorter and towards my face more. I was like whatever. And then the whole weekend I got yelled at for having my hair up. I put it up twice yesterday because I was sooo hot at work. And today because I wore an Eagles hat. Saturday was a pretty darn good day!!! I worked 10-3(same as Friday) and my dpt. manager came in and was like you can leave if you want.... I was like sure why not. And so I got to leave at 2 pm. I was sooooo happy!!!! I had time to wash my hair because I had green dye that deb put in my hair for the Eagles! And then my friend Megan came to WC from Allentown!!!!!!!!!!!! I was sooooooooo happy and excited to see her! She bought me flowers for an early V-day gift. I was like aww how sweet! So we went bowling which was totally fun!!! The bumpers were already set so we just played with them on and I was like sweet I am playing better then I usually do!!! I won the first game getting a 93!!! (go me!) and then she won the other getting the same score actually!!! (go us!!!) and then we drove to KOP to go to the Kildares for dinner and then on the way to Kildares I had saw a tent of Eagles stuff and so after dinner we went to go look and the stuff was expensive which didn't surprise me. $40 for hoodies some shirts were $20 and stuff for $8!!! Not at all worth it. So then we went to the KOP mall which was fun! We went to Foot Locker and I got an Eagles shirt as well as a Villanova shirt that was long sleeve so I could wear it under the Eagles shirt. Megan bought a hoodie for 19.99 and it was a special deal for buy one get one free so I got one also. We walked around a lot and then we went to Sam Goody and I thought I lost my stuff from Foot Locker and I was panicing, but it was at the check out counter (phew)!!! And then we got ice cream yummy!!!! And then we went to Barnes and Nobles in Exton for coffee/drink. And then we came back to my house and she gave me a massage!!!! which was very nice!!! She is going to massage school. And then we talked until 1 in the morning and she went home then!!! It was sooo great to see her!!! I missed her a lot! And work today wasn't that bad. It was busier than I thought it was going to be. It died down at like 2:30 - 3:00. I got home in time to see the kick-off and all. And then the Eagles start to play really badly!!! And they lost 24-20!!!!!!!!!!!! I was like what the freakin heck was that!!!! They let the Falcones get the ball like 3 times!!!! I was ticked off!!!!! Well anyway! Time for bed!!! need rest for tomorrow! Please pray for my dad!!! I get to see my grandmom and aunt and have lunch with them!!! Good night!!! I love you all! Sorry if I don't blog for a little bit! Please now that I love you guys and that I am thinking of you!!!

surgery

Hey my dear friends! My dad's surgery is tomorrow and I am getting a little stressed and scared. My mom was telling me that I might see him with a tube down his throat. It is going to be sooooooo hard for me to see him lying in a hospital bed. I am crying just writing this. Please pray for him. His surgery is at 12. They have to leave home at 7 and be there by 9 am. I am going to go see him around 4 or 4:30... I am being picked up with my sister Michele by our brother Mark. I know in my heart everything is going to be ok. But it's just really hard keeping my emotions at bay and my head is like but yeah what if this happens or something like that? I don't know how much I will be blogging this week, but if you want I can send an email or call(local people) to let you know how he is doing. Just reply to this and let me know! Please pray for the surgeon and doctors and nurses for wisdom! And for my dad to recover. And obviously for my family. I can't wait until next month or 2 months from now!!!! We are getting our kitchen re-done also and that starts the 21st of February. So when the week after he is suppose to get home they start with the kitchen! Oh fun stuff!!!! Love you all!!!!

dad's surgery and EAGLES!!!!!!

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EAGLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah baby it's our year!!!! just kidding! Let the best team win!!! I am probably just going to watch the game from home. Instead of going to the CR party and the Bridge party. My dad's surgery is the next day so I want to be home with my family. His surgery is at 12. They have to be there at 9 so they have to leave home at 7 am. I am not sure when i will be able to see him, but I may stay home and sleep and then go up with one of my brothers or sister. I don't know whats going on yet. But yeah! GOOOOO EAGLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They played the Eagles fight song at work today!!!! It was cool!! lol! And they got in Eagles earrings so deb(co-worker) and I bought a pair. They are cute! I got my hair cut today. It is kind of short and it is different from what I am use to... oh well!!!! I can't wait until Saturday because one of my best friends that moved away is coming to see me!!!!!!!! I haven't seen her since the summer. And she is just coming up to see me.. she doesn't have to work and I asked her what she was up to and she said nothing and I asked her if she wanted to/could come and she said yes!!!!! So I can not wait!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have a great weekend everyone!!!! Go Eagles. I will have green dye in my hair tomorrow if you guys want to stop by Boscov's between 10 till 3!!!!! hehehe! lol! Love you all!!!!!

Weekend and Monday

My parents went to Disney World they left on Friday early in the morning. My weekend wasn't that bad, but I was kind of ticked at my brother for a number of things. Some of you know why, but I don't really want to talk about it on here(nikki i am pretty sure you know why). If you want to know then just ask me. Friday night I was ticked off b/c the baby shower that was suppose to be last Saturday was on Friday I wasn't able to go because I had to work of course! I always have to work!!! So i went home and then I just got on AIM for a little and talked with people and then went to bed and then Saturday was kind of fun. I worked 5:30 till 10. And then I went to my friend Ruth's house and she made something to eat for the both of us and then we talked and stuff. We had both bought clothes and stuff so we showed each other. I didn't go home till 12:45 and guess what!?!?! It was snowing(again)!!! So I got home and then my brother pulls up right after me. He had 3 friends over. And they asked me what I was doing and I said nothing. So they asked me if I wanted to hang out with them I said why not. And then they said they wanted something to eat. Kevin(my brother) started to cook something and it wasn't in the right thing so I had to do it. I made a chicken and broccli which was already prepared. They played this game called a-whole... which kind of got loud. It is basically a drinking card game. And then at 3 we all went up and I went to bed and they were talking in my brothers room. They ended up spending the night(b/c of the snow which there wasn't alot of but I think they were drinking before hand so...) So I went to my room and a few minutes go by and my brother asks me if I care if two of the people sleep in our parents room. I was like um yes.... but I mean the only other bed we have is in the basement which isnt fun to sleep down their. So I was like whatever just tell the parents he said. I was like fine whatever!!!!! When really I wanted to smack him!!! But I didn't.... that night like 3:30 I could not get to sleep right away! And I was going to go to CCC at 10:30, but that didn't happen. I woke up at noon!!! I was like woah!!! I actually slept till noon for once. I didn't think I could do that! Monday was an ok day... I had my Earth Science class at 12 till 1:30 and then I had to teach my moms CCD class since she wasn't here and the kids were little rascals.... hehe! But some of them were good. One boy helped me sooo much getting the others to be quiet! And ya know normally he is not like that!!!! I think he knew I meant it and so he was trying to be more responsible! I was actually learning the names and all... I have only gone with my mom about 4 or 5 times. I knew some names but at times Im like this one or that one... so it was cool that I started learning there names. And then after CCD I had dinner with Rebecca and Trisha which was nice. We originally were going to go to TGIFridays but its was like a half hour wait!!!!!! We were like um no!!! So we went to Bob Evens... I had never been there! It was pretty good! Then I came home and just relaxed. And tomorrow my parents come home!!!! YAY!!! And then on Saturday I get to see one of my best friends who I have not seen since the summer!!!!! I CANNOT wait till this Saturday! I think I will be floating at work on Saturday... I work 10-3 and then we are going to meet up!!! I am so excited to see her! Have a great week all! Love yas!

update

Hey all! I haven't updated my blog in a couple days because I have been on the run doing so much. My parents left at 5:00 am this morning to go to Disney World. Lucky them... oh well! CrossRoads was fun last night. After CR Nina, Lynette, and Ruth and I went to the West Chester Diner. I have to say, that was a lot of fun!!!! We ordered a lot of ranch dressing. And Lynette dared Ruth to ask the waiter if we could have ranch dressing to go. And he came back with this little tube of ranch dressing with no lid and we were like um.. ok! And then he's about to walk away and he places two tubes of ranch dressing(with lids)... it was really funny! He was a good server. And then Ruth took me back to the church were my car was and we talked for a little and then she kicked me out.... hehe! My dad's surgery is a week from this coming Monday. We find out the time of his surgery next Friday. I am getting a little nervous and stressed. I had a test on Wednesday in Math which I forgot about and yeah lets just say I screwed up.... oh well. That's about all I have done this week so far. I have to work tonight from 5:30 till 9:45 and tomorrow same time I believe. Well I will talk to you all later! love ya!!!!! take care! have a good weekend!!!!!

in a blah mood

Today has been a weird day. My mood has changed a few times. Its like a roller coaster. I think because of all that is and will be happening. I also am feeling a little blue you could say. The day started out fine. I went to be at like 10:30 last night and then I got up at 9:45 ish. And I was the only one home(besides my cat hehe). And that was fine. My mom came home around 11:00 and she drove me to school. I normally drive myself but because of the snow it makes me a little nervous at times being it my first snow storm driving in. My second class Abnormal Psy. got out at 3 and so I called my mom and she was at her office and I had to wait until 3:45 till she got there which was ok. I didn't mind. I told her to take her time. So then she picked me up and then we went o WAWA to get coffee and a New York Times newspaper for my earth science class. My professor wants us to read the Science Times in that newspaper. So I got it. And then we went home. We just hung around and she was making dinner. I called a friend to see if she wanted to hang out but she didn't answer so I left a message. She never called me back. So I called another friend same thing. And so I was like forget about doing something now. And I ate dinner with my family and watched Jeopordy(sp) and then I was checking my email(of course their was nothing) and then my cell rings and its Tricia wanting to know if I wanted to hang out and I said yes. So she came to my house and she brought dunkin donuts. And then we watched American Idol. And obviously talked and she left at around 9:15 ish. Then I was trying to find something to watch on t.v. and I couldn't find anything so I got my Earth Science stuff to do homework. And I am almost done. I also cleaned my bathroom floor... don't ask why?! I don't even know myself. And that got me really warm in the middle of winter.... so right now in my room I have my fan turned on low. I have been feeling very weird lately. Not sick wise, but emotional. I guess because of my dad's surgery coming up it has gotten me messed up emotionally. At unexpected times I will just start thinking about it and start tearing up. One of my other parts of my mood is I feel lonely like no one wants to do anything with me. I know people are busy and all but I really love to hang out with people and its a way for me to get to know people better and the fact that I have never had a date or boyfriend. I find it hard and I feel so... I don't know! empty i guess. I feel like I am just a joke. no guy wants to have a relationship with me and I am not pretty enough. I don't feel attractive. I just find it really hard right now since you see couples all over the place and Valentines Day coming up. I just feel lonely I guess. The Winter Blues. Anyway I am sorry for blabbing on and on. Good night!

better day

Today, was a better day. I woke up around 11:15 and did nothing. It was snowing today all day!!! The mall closed at 2:30 this afternoon so I never had to work today! I was very happy about this! I found my ring. It had actually fallen into my bag(thank god). I found it last night I believe way after I had posted saying I lost it. I have been doing absolutley nothing besides doing homework and playing on the computer and talking to people. I might watch a movie later with my parents and maybe my brother. I hope everyone is safe. And know one had to go out in this yucky weather!!!! Stay safe! Love you all!

apology

I just wanted to say I am sorry for the way I was typing/talking. I get so angry and upset about things and then things just slip out. I am sorry if it affended anyone! I am becoming a weak person because of working at Boscov's were a lot of people curse frequently and I find myself cursing and I have tried not to curse, but everytime I stop I hear someone else say something and then it gets in my head and do it again. It's kind of like drugs. You get hooked and then you can't stop!!!

Yesterday or the day before, the surgeons office called and confirmed the date for my dad's surgery which is what we were given(Feb. 7) but the have to wait 30 days before to put on the schedule or something like that. I get so upset and sad at different times of the day but not everyday.... only when I starting to think about it or I don't have much going on. I just start tear up and get upset. I don't know who I am upset at. I know I am not upset at God. I know He didn't do anything or if he did he brought the good already! I guess it's just fear and sadness. Well, anyway please keep praying and I will update as soon as I know something new! Love you all!

coldness.....

Hey friends,
Today was another bad day for me. Why you ask? Lets see I lost my ring. I almost was locked in Boscov's. A co-worker was being really rude to me(practically yelling at me over the phone). Oh and yeah my co-worker I was suppose to work with called out again! This is the second day this week that I did not have a good day. And I hate boscov's. It is seriously bringing the worst out of me!!! I am tired of being so drained when I come home. I am always being told what I am suppose to do and ya know I have been there for a year and five months. I have been then their the second longest besides deb who has been their for three years! My manager has only been here for like four or five months. It really ticks me off.... I don't like talking to people above me... I know I should be but I don't feel like trying to get ahold of them because I usually on work the weekends and they aren't always there.... but any who!

I don't want this freakin snow. They say we are suppose to get 10-15"!!! My sister in laws surprise baby shower was suppose to be tomorrow at 4 and it is postponed. And I am sooooo pissed at my dpt. manager. I had asked off for tomorrow TWO MONTHS AGO!!!!!! And she puts me on the schedule and for the night shift. That just pisses me off!!!!!!!!! And another thing, people are so prejudice their. If you are not in the "clique" then they ignore you. I am talking about like the other dpt managers and the store manager. Yeah they will say hi to you and all but thats it. If you need something yeah right.... My friend was telling me she wanted to kill herself because of people at Boscov's and she shouldn't need to feel this way. And also you are suppose to pick up your checks and if you can't you have to either call ahead or write a note if you are having someone else picking it up. well she had her husband coming to get it and they wouldn't give it to him b/c of this reason and ya know NO ONE else in the freakin store listens to that damn rule because other people(boyfriends) come and get it without a need for a note or call. Now is that fair??? no. Anyways I am getting a little ticked off again about that so I am getting off! Good night!

snow, snow, snow

Yes, that is what it is doing outside right now! And it doesn't make me very happy. But oh well. There's nothing I can do about it. It frustrates me that DCCC doesn't close for the night classes because Laura and I have to drive to Downingtown which is not really a fun drive to start with and with snow..... oh my gosh. I should leave now!!!!!!!!! But ya know I don't care Im not going to go because I don't want to risk anything especially since this is my first time driving in snow!!! I almost slide into the curb coming home from my 12 o'clock class and I slide past my drive way and had to go up the street and turn around. I do not like driving in the snow... it's scary!!!! Hopefully DCCC is smart enough to close down for the night because people come from all over!!! Its a communiting only community college. and it's just going to freeze on the roads and get worse.

All in God's Hands

I am not liking this cold weather, but who does like it? I mean I don't really like having to always bundle up to go outside! I love spring days when all you need is a sweatshirt and summer when you don't have to have a jacket. Someone had told me I am in the wrong place(meaning PA) since we have cold weather. Well, yes I understand that, but then I wouldn't be able to see my friends and my family. I would be very sad not to see them!

At work tonight, I had to do a lot of running around. We had to take the clothes to the register to check the prices and then color code them according to the prices. And then arrange them so it would look nicer.... it is a lot of work let me tell you!! Plus having to wait on customers at the same time. Inventory has just got done last week and we don't have any of the hand held guns to check prices with so we have to bring it to the register. Retail is not that much fun, but it pays me... not the best money but I get paid.... There are times when I absolutley do not like working at Boscov's but you know I just look at it in this way: God put me there for a reason and he will help me through it. If I am thinking this way I will have a better day. There are some days I just come in a bad mood and it just sticks, but once in a while a customer lifts my mood or a co-worker.... and I am fine the rest of the time I am there.

As my subject says it is all in God's time and there isn't really anything we(you and I) can do about that. We just have to let God handle everything even that can be hard at times! I know I struggle with that at times! I am so thankful to God for helping me through everything I go through and have gone through. At the time, you feel like He is not there and He really is, you may not know that he is there because what you are facing is to hard and it brings you pain and you are "blinded". We all feel like this at one time or another. That is when we need our brothers and sisters in Christ praying for us and asking God to help us and praying to him. I love you all! Take care! Sorry I am lecturing on and on, but its something I just felt I wanted/needed to say. Thanks for reading if you read down to here!

up-date on my dad....

Wow two blogs in one day!!! hehe! that hasn't happened yet for me... Here is an update on my dad. I thank you to the people who are praying for my family and especially him. He had a catheritzation yesterday. It was like an 8 hour procedure. My mom and dad left at 7 am and came home at 3:15pm. So it was a long day for both of them. He was awake during the whole thing. He had to help the doctor. He had to breath or hold his breath or something so they could get a camera thing into his leg to go up to the heart to check everything and to see if there were any unexpected things. Which thankfully there wasn't any problems or anything besides what the doctors already knew. They stitched him up a new way where he just had to stay for like two hours instead of like another 3 hours. Technology has come along way and new ways of doing things have been comign out. It is very interesting. I ask you to please continue to pray for him and my family. I will continue to update you! Love you all!

updates on my life

Hey all! I had a pretty good weekend!!! On Thursday I went to CrossRoads which of course was really good. Katie, Ruth and I went to Applebees afterwards. On Friday I had breakfast with my friend Laura Farina and then we went to see Fat Albert. It was a funny/cute movie. Laura had driven me so she drove me home and then I watched A Cinderella Story with Hilary Duff(I love her)!!! It is a really good movie. And then my mom and I went to Dover, DE to see her dad and my grandfather. It was a lot of fun. I always love going to see him. The only thing I wish is that he will stop smoking so freakin much!!! Its like every second he has to have a cigarette. My mom smokes but not as much as him and my grandmom and my aunt. They are practically killing themselves. Cigarettes are SOOOOOOooooooooo disgusting!!!! Anyways.... My grandfather lives practically in the middle of nowhere. There's open fields across the street and in the back of his house. He took my mom and I out to dinner. We went to this restaurant called Cool Springs which is a very good restaurant right near his house. I had honey bourbon salmon it was pretty good. Then we came back to his house and stayed and talked for a little bit. He has two dogs. Maxine and Mary Jane. Mary Jane is very shy but very very sweet. I think she was hurt as a puppy or was abused. I don't remember. She was kind of scared but not scared. She was more into sniffing me and she let me pet her. We stayed until around 10:30 ish. And my mom and I talked about a lot of stuff. I love my mom so much! I can talk to her about a lot of things and we are both open. On Saturday I had to work at 2:30 till 9:45. Work sucked. It was kind of slow but I just was not having a good day. I was in a sort of bad mood. I was opening my dinner and the juice from the container had leaked all over my lunch box thing. As I was opening my milk it spilled on the floor..... I was not that happy then I didn't have a good day/evening as you can tell :) Sunday was a MUCH better day!!!! I did not have to work!!! YAY!!!!! Second Sunday in a row! I went to Christ Community Church this morning. Scott Allen preached this morning. It was very interesting. Trisha Allen sat next to me and I was glad to see her because I have not seen her in a very long time. Probably since last summer or her baby shower..... So it was good to see her. And then I talked a bit with people like Will, Rich and others. And then I went home and watched the Eagles play!!!! And they kicked some Viking butt!!!! It was an awesome game!!! They were expected to win!!!! GO EAGLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was going to go to the Bridge but I was going to get a ride from Melinda because my car was making a screeching noise when I was driving home from work last night. We think it is the belt. We are going to take it to McLaughins on Tuesday just to make sure that's whets wrong. Then Melinda called me and said she couldn't go, something had come up and so I am at home, but I am going to hang out with her for a little probably at around 7:30 7:45. I hope all of you had a great weekend! I love you guys!

School and various...

Hey all! I know I haven't blogged in a while. I have been busy with school starting school. I like most of my professors. I am taking Earth Science(mon-wed) , math wed nights(with laura!!!), World Religion and Abnormal Psychology on tue and thur. I really like my abnormal psy. class!!! My professor said we didn't need the book and not to bother paying $115 for it. He made notes from his book and he has them for us. And we can call him by his first name. My Earth Science class is sooo annoying because it is with kids who don't even care that they are in college and spending a lot of money. They just don't give a crap about school. Math is not my favorite class(as you guys know) but the professor is cool! It is suppose to be a 3 hr. class and he won't make us stay that long. He said usually you will get out of the class at like 8:45 or so. And tonight was the first night we had math and the electricity went out twice!!!! It was kind of freaky!!!! I went to Dunkin Donuts with Laura on Monday night I believe it was and it was fun. We played MASH and it was funny! And mean while I am taking pictures of Laura and she says "no more flashing" and I say "I'm not gonna flash" and we just start cracking up!!!! I said it kind of loud. But it was hilarious!!!!!!!!!!! It was a good time. On Thursday we have CR and I am excited about that!!! It's always great to see my friends!!! And Friday I have off from work. I am having breakfast with my friend(Laura Farina) and then we are going to see Fat Albert and then I get to see my grandfather that evening!!!!! I can't wait to see my grandfather. It has been probably a year since I have seen him!!! Then Saturday I work 2:30 till 9:45 and Sunday I have off and I am watching the playoffs and then going to the Bridge and I am going to church obviously!!! Well goodnight everyone(or Nikki have a good rest of the day)!!!! Love ya!

feeling of joy

Hey all. Nikki see I am updating my post just for you!!!! lol! This weekend started out ok and ended great. I work on Friday from 6-9:45 and Sat. 5-9:45. I actually had Sunday off which was a great relief because I have worked just about 5 Sunday's in a row and I was not too happy about that. And I went to Christ Community Church this morning. I was a couple minutes late. But I got there and it was awesome as always. There was a guest speaker. Right now I can't remember what he talked about. He is a missionary from Spain I think. And so he talked about that. We ended the service singing How Great Thou Art first in Spanish which was totally awesome and then obviously in English. And then I came home had some homemade chicken and dumplings and thn spent time with my mom going to Barnes and Nobles. I bought us coffee from the Starbucks cafe thing. And then came home and hung out while my mom worked on CCD and then one of my best friends called me(Katrin) and I have been wanting to hang out with her for a while. So i went to her house for a little and then we went to her apartment at WCU to bring groceries their. And then came back to her house and then I went to Bridge which as always is awesome! But this night was totally amazing. My friend Tricia came I had invited her and she was like sure i'll come. I was happy about that and then Phil preached the kingdom of God. It was very interesting. He told us some facts and here is one of them 190 million(yes MILLION) unchurched people are in the USA. how incredibly sad is that?? My heart just yearns for them and I want more people to know the love of Christ because he will set you free!!!!!!!!! And then the closing worship was AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!! I even asked one of the people on the prayer team to pray for me and my family about my dad. When I came out of talking with her my friend from high school came up and stayed and sang with me for a few minutes which was awesome. I haven't seen her for like year. I graduated a year before her. And then I talked to my friend Megan and it was awesome. I was telling her about bridge and she was proud of me. I have grown a lot this year. I have learned a lot also. I have a lot of joy in what my family will be through in the next few months and I am at peace with it! Thank you God!!!!!!! God bless all of you! I love you all!

update on my dad

I don't know how many of you have read my previous blog, but my dad is going to be having open heart surgery. He has a thoracic aortic aneurysm which is in the upper part of the heart. He saw the surgeon yesterday. And they are comfortable with him. His cardiologist referred him to the best person in the world for heart surgeries. Which is very good and my dad looked online before he even told him the surgeons name and he came up with the same guy. The scheduled the surgery for February 7th. This is a tentative date. It may change and I will let you guys know when the date will be. I will keep you updated with this. When I find things! Just please keep praying! Thank you! Love ya guys!

need prayer

Hey all! I need a favor from you guys. I need you to pray specifically for my dad but also the family. About 4 or 5 weeks ago my dad had a doctors appt. and the doctore suggested he have a stress test done. So he did. He was also having hemroids and that is how the found out what he had. He has an aortic anyerism he wil have to have surgery (open heart surgery). He has an appt. with the surgeon on January 4 and then on the 6th he has another doctors appt. to do test and get him ready for the surgery. The surgery should be a month after his visit with the surgeon. When they found out about this, they thought that it was a 5.3 5.4 and it is a 5.8 and in one spot a 5.9. If it had been a 6 then he would have had to have surgery like that same week but since it was a little lower they said it was ok for him to wait. But he can't wait long becuase this could kill him if he doesn't have the surgery soon. The day after Christmas we had my family over(brothers and sister) and they(mom and dad) told us then because we were all together. I think it was hardest on my mom because she couldn't tell anyone because my dad didn't want us to know because they didn't know what was going on. It is a miracle that they found it now because it can kill you and you don't know you have it. I just ask you to keep us in prayer over the next couple months and I will let you know how everything is going. Thank you! Love ya!

Christmas season

I have really changed my outlook on life and Christmas. I think I am finally opening my eyes and really seeing everything for the first time! My nieces and nephew were in a Christmas play last night. And I was just crying because of everything God did for us. And it was just so awesome to see young kids singing about the love of Christ. Of course I am proud of them, but they are little princesses and prince. I love them so very much and I am sad to say I don't get to see them nearly as much as I would like to. They were the love of Christ last night with how they portrayed the music and everything. My nephew Keith who is 5 years old just sang his little heart out and it was tooooo cute and amazing. I love them so much. Even work wasn't that bad yesterday. I was surprised at how nice the customers were. The Christmas holiday has been awesome and I am glad that I was able to experience the love and peace of Christ. God bless all of you!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Merry Christmas to all my friends and family! i love you guys! This Christmas has been the best Christmas I have had in a few years. I got to see my nieces and nephew Christmas Eve. And tomorrow I get to see ALL of my family(except aunts in NJ and grandmom and aunt in DE i saw them today). Christmas was a little different this year than in years past because we usually have the family over on Christmas Eve and then Christmas day is usually just my 2 to three step brothers and their wifes. And then we go and visit with my godparents and other friends. This year we are having family over tomorrow, but we still went to see my godparents. It's always fun being their. I think I have known them since I was part of this family(around age 5). They would babysit me when my parents would go out of town or someone in my neighborhood would. But they have always taken great care of us! I could really feel the meaning of Christmas this year and the love of Christ. It wasn't just about the presents.... which I don't really care that much about. I love to see my family and friends!!! I hope all of you have a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!!!!! Love ya all!!!!

not happy

Hey friends! I am going through a lot right now and I need some prayer. Im not sure if I am in the right major. I did well on my other classes but Foundations of American Education killed me of course. It was too much to handle 5 classes and so that class probably won't transfer. I got a D in it. I tried, but I don't test well. And he just sat there and talked for 3 hours. I couldn't stand it. And then for my next math class I am taking Math for elementary education and I have the same teacher that I failed math the last time the whole reason I had to take 5 classes. I am going to see if I can get another teacher or something because if I fail again I will not be happy. All through high school I never failed any of my classes. I don't know whats wrong with me now. I try so hard and it doesn't seem to pay off. I even studied for the final but of course one of the days I had to miss we were going over the final. The reason I had to miss it is because of my Speech final (going to the Tel Hai nursing home). So I didn't get some of the stuff that was on our final. During the final I was getting distracted soooo easily. And I was like whatever I don't care anymore. This class was all but frustrating to me. I did my work and I showed up. I didn't do well on the tests. Well that shouldn't affect my grade. Most teachers put in the account of the student trying and showing up and participating. Whatever! I don't care anymore. I don't know what I am going to do now, but I can't do anything about that grade. And all my mom said is that I will just have to try harder in my classes. That will be hard because of working. If I am working I can't concentrate on homework and studying there.... Whatever. I just feel like such a failure and I don't feel like trying an more.

All in His time

At times I feel very lonely. I know that my friends are there with me and for me. I know God is with me when I am not with or around my friends. But it's like I don't know what I am here for. What does God have in store for my life? I won't ever know that. I can only do one thing at a time. I get so confused sometimes. I can't understand why God would die for me and love me so much. All I am is a screw up and failure. At CrossRoads tonight we were asked this question "What if Jesus really was God on earth?" It was a hard question to answer because as Christians we believe that Jesus is God on earth. This really got me thinking. I am totally confused by everything... I don't know what really confuses me, but I am. I am also lonely. As I said before I know my friends care about me and love me. But I need someone to love me and who wants to be with me. I have never had a bf and I get lonely and I wonder what it would be like/feel like to have a bf care for me. I am waiting on God with this but it is soo hard not to think about it. A lot of my friends have a bf or are engaged or married. And I'm like ok God when are you going to send someone? I guess I am not ready to be in a relationship like that. I don't know whats going on in this department of my life. I feel as if I am not pretty enough for a guy to like me. I have a poor self-image and self-esteem. Most of my friends know this and if you don't know you do now. I think thats another reason I am so quiet and reserved. Maybe God doesn't want me to be in a relationship at all. who knows. It's all in His time.

English class

I had my English class today for the last time. English is not my favorite class because of the grammar and all the writings you have to do. I didn't do that great on the writings but on my last journal I got a 95% which brought my grade up. And I got a 78% on my research paper which was our final. I got an 80% for the class. My professor said he read mine last which doesn't bother me that much but get this he went over my grades a few times and he arranged it so I would be getting a B for the class. How nice of him is that? I was like oh my gosh thank you! I was very surprised. So that was really cool. And then I just browsed around Mustard Seed and then TJ Maxx and Mashells and then the mall. I had to work 5-11 pm. It wasn't that bad. At times I like working there but at times I hate it. I think it depends on how busy it is. And the mood I come in with. Today, I was in a pretty darn good mood and so work wasn't that bad. I was scanning the dept (department). We had a huge sale last Friday and Saturday and so things were all in the wrong spots. So I had to scan like each thing. Some were marked down. The misses sizes were mixed in with the petites and vice versa. It helps out my manager b/c she doesn't really like to do that and I do so I didn't mind. I got misses and woman's done. My manager only has to do the petites which doesn't take that long because it's like 7 racks or something. Its very small now that coats has taken over our petite dresses section. Oh well. I got some of it done but I had to keep stopping to help customers. So yeah, that was my day. It was a pretty good day. I am going crawl in bed and get some sleep. Me tired. hehe! Love ya all!!!

Finals Week

Hey all! It is finals week for DCCC and probably others schools. I have taken my first of 3 finals. And I passed the class!!!! Thank God. I had my math final tonight and I passed. I only needed 25% to pass the class. I got a 51% on my final. which gave me a 77% for the class! I was sooo worried about math because I had taken it before and failed. That was the first time I had failed any of my classes. I was not that happy and then I had to re-take it. I tried to take it in the summer with the individualized program.... lets just say that didn't work and my teacher took me out of the class because I wasn't learning the material. And so I was put into another math class at D'town campus. My teacher took the time to help me understand the material and helped me after class almost every class. It was a very short time that she could help me but it helped because I didn't fail. I am thankful that she took the time to help me and she was always encouraging me. The only finals I have left are in Sociology on Thursday and Education on Friday and they are both quizzes. I go into my English class tomorrow for like 10 minutes and then I leave. We are picking up our papers and get our grades and then we can leave. How awesome is that? Well I will talk to you all later! Love ya guys!

Bridge

Bridge was awesome last night. It was on the 5th Commandment. Honor your father and mother. The music was awesome.Very involved. I just love going to the Bridge. The music is very fulfilling to me. One thing Phil said was "If you can't love God with you whole being, than you can't love others." How true and sad is that. He let us have a time of quiet. I was crying because a lot of emotion was running through me. Growing up, I never had a real father and at times it pains me still even though I am basically over it. And so, it came back to be last night. I have never know my dad. I don't know what traits I got from my biological father. And I always wonder who he is and why he left my mom and I. All I know is that he was a very heavy smoker and he didn't care about anything. I have a step-dad who I know loves me, but it's different. I can't call him "dad". When I write a note I can write dad. It just feels weird. My step-dad always does things with his kids and I usually don't get to do things with him. He use to yell at me a lot. So I had a lot of pain and emotion running through me. One thing that was on my mind is being sexually harassed as a child but not by a parent. I was being babysat by my momse friend and he was doing stuff to me. I am almost over that but once in a while I still get upset and sad. Now after this talk we went to Stadium Grill in Eagle to watch the Eagles. The Eagles won but it wasn't a great game. I was driving to Downingtown Campus today and I was thinking about the talk and how I have not honored my parents all the time and I started tearing up again. I was like oh goodness please don't start crying again. I just felt bad for everything that I have done. My relationship with my mom is pretty good but at times it's not always the best. I was feeling really bad. I am going to write a note to my mom. I owe everything to her. She raised me by herself for half of my life. She quit one of her favorite things to be with me. She used to be a ballroom dance teacher and she gave that up for me so she could be with me. I love my mom very much and I am thankful for her. I thank God for her and I thank God that our relationship is strengthening.

Christmas

Hey all! It is Christmas time.... I can feel it now :-) Last year I was not happy about Christmas b/c of having to work during Christmas but this year is different.... I feel better. I know I have to work and I am ok about that. Thanks to all my friends, I am not as stressed as I was. I am almost all calm about everything. I still have to do the research paper thats due on Tuesday, but ya know.. I have a different attitude about it. I am much calmer and at ease. I know God's going to help. And He loves me and He knows I am not perfect and He forgives me for everything that I have done. God is SOOOOOOO awesome! Thank God I found him when I did or I'd be sooo messed up now. I don't even want to think about how I'd be. That scares me and it makes me sad when I am just sitting in my classes waiting for class to start or I am just waiting around hanging out and someone starts to talk about parties, and drinking, and having sex. Its kind of upsetting also because they are messing up there lives and they don't know it or if they do they just simply don't care. I know these two girls and they were like I love to drink and make myself drunk.... I was like ok then see ya.... It makes me sad and frustrated and uncomfortable. I have been around a lot of people drinking growing up because having 3 step brothers and a step sister(all older)... It is just sad when family doesn't get along because of someone making a poor choice. and ya know what?!?!? It can be avoided. All it does or can do is kill you or someone else. Make others mad at you. Causes fights. And its just not cool.... Who wants to forget everything they did or say to someone... and if you have sex when you are drunk you could easily get a girl pregnant. Bad choices when it comes to drinking!!!!! Anyway that was a little off the topic but I am just sooo thankful that I have God in my life. I don't really feel that stressed anymore either. What Cynthia told me works :-D Just think of things that you are thankful for that God has given you instead of dredding over what is causing you to be stressed. Well, I love you all! ~*J-mo*~

Great ending to my week

Hey all! I have had the best ending to my week. Thursday was pretty cool. School was ok. My English class was kind of canceled we had a day in the library. And then my Soc. class we watched a movie. And my friend Lee Anne is coming to talk about Thailand and Bangkok and all on Tuesday. I am sooo excited. And I also got to see my friends at CrossRoads. Which was really cool. I missed not seeing them last week because of Thanksgiving. It is that time of year where everyone gets soooo busy. And then Friday I didn't go to my Amer. Edu. class because I had to do a project for my Small group communications class. And that went really well. I spent the whole day doing the project. The project was to do something in the community to help others. It had to be a big thing. It was up to our group to come up with what we wanted to do. But we had to run what we were doing by my teacher. And my group decided to go to a place called Tel Hai which is a nursing home but it has an adult day care and child care and like everything. We did a skit, games, arts and crafts, sang Christmas Carols, and had an Ice Cream social. which was soooo much fun. Everything was fun. It felt like we were there for like 25 min. We were there from 2-4 and then we decided to grab a bite to eat. So we went to Capos or whatever. And had pizza and french fries. And then during dinner Jess our group leader got a phone call from Tel Hai and said how the other people were jealous of the Adult Day care. One thing I fogot to say was that the guy who runs the whole place came down. Back to dinner and phone call. She said we my group will be in the DAILY LOCAL newspaper. And they invited us to come back. This was just a project our final and look what it brought us to!!! I can't believe it. It is soooo awesome and I can't believe it. Then my group came back to my house and we worked on the paper and power point... We goofed a little but we worked also. My mom let us use her digital camera and then we were pretty much done at 9 and then I asked my mom if she could take a few pictures of us. Which she did. And then she plugged the camera into the computer and then we picked our favorite. and then she emailed all the pictures to us. It was a fun night. Then I spent sometime with my mom before she went to bed. And now it is Saturday. I have to work at 4-11 but you know what!? It's cool. I am not upset or anything.... I got an email from a friend and she was telling me that when I start to feel stressed to Thank God for everything He has given me. And that is exactly what I am going to do! If you have read done to hear thanks! I love you all! ~J-mo~

re: post from yesterday

Hey to all my friends who I know care and love me! Well, you know what I love you guys more!!!! Thank you for telling me that you love me and telling me that God will pull me through this. Thanks for the prayers. Please keep praying. I do feel a little better, but I know I am not totally better. I am struggling a little, but I feel its less than it was last night! So this is good. I think I am just getting so worried and stressed that I can't see through it. Thank you all for the encouragement. I know I have said this already, but it really means a lot to me! Nikki, thank you so much for being there for me. You are such a sweet heart. You are an angel :) You have taught me a lot through this and through our conversations. Becca, thanks for just being you. You have taught me a lot through the short amount of time we have know each other. I love being around you. Thank you guys! I love you guys a lot!!!!!!!!!!

depressed

I am sitting here crying. I hate my life right now! Nothing ever works for me. I try so hard and nothing pays off at least it doesnt seem it. I am sooo stressed. As i said in th other post I was thinking I had to work on the 10th of Dec till 12:45 I was correct and then the following week is finals. I don't know how I am ever going to study!!! I have a research project due on Tuesday. And how am I going to get it done working so much??? I have no clue. My mom doesn't understand the stress I am under. I have told her a lot and she doesnt understand. She knows I want to quit Boscov's but she insits that I have to have another job. Well, i cant handel this working and school business. I dont know what to do. I am scared of failing. I am scared of doing things. I am sooo tired. I don't know if I can go on anymore. Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Christmas season has started

Hey all! Christmas is upon us once again! The second busiest time of year for shopping, returns, exchanges. It gets really tiring. This is my 2nd Christmas working at Boscov's. I need to get out of their. Last night, I felt like I was about to walk out of there for good. I mean I try to do everything that they want from me, but they want it done a different way or its not good enough. I am tired of the BS of Boscov's. Im tired of being a slave for the people who don't know how to put back stuff on the correct racks. It is really frustrating when people just throw dresses on the floor, leave the broken hangers on the floor. These are NOT your clothes. These are like $100 dresses people. Im sorry but people are disgusting!!!! I find tissues, food, the little sponge type thing on the floor with their lipstick on it, just like all on the floor in the dressing and else where. I don't need to be cleaning after people. One of the co-workers is a little odd in the head. Some of my other co-workers said that she started barking like a dog.... now whats up with that?!?!?! And she was hitting her head on the pillar next to the register..... There's something definitley wrong with her. well anyway. I hate having to work till 10 and 11 pm during the weekend. I am already staying up till 12:30 sometimes 1 am trying to get school work done. Am I going to have to stay up till 2 now? I don't understand why we have to be open that late. On Dec. 10 we are open till 12 am. What in the same heck is up with that????? Someone tell me why we are open till then???? I know for a fact that I am going to have to work then and I am not that happy about that.... arggggg...... And school is coming to an end and it is very stressful right now. I can't even keep my brains straight. I have a research project that I need to do by Tuesday and with working I have no clue how in the sames heck I am going to get it done. Well, I gotta get back to doing math homework. So, I will talk to ya all later! Love ya guys! Take care!