Random thought

I haven't written in a while before the last to entries and I forgot to say Happy Anniversary to me for blogging for a year Nov. 24!! So yeah I was just looking through my blogs and all and I was like oops look at that I have had this for a year. Well hope all is well! Love ya all!!!

Tis So Beautiful

I tried to type this before but some how it got deleted and so I was kind of fed up with the computer and I was like whatever I'll just type later!! I hope everyone is doing well and is ready for Christmas!! Here is my latest and greatest news!!!! This is just copied from my blog on myspace!

Hey my lovely and wonderful friends!!!!! I have had a pretty good week and it is almost over.... I am happy and very excited to say that my family has a new baby boy. My step-brother and his wife just gave birth to a little baby boy named Chase. Her due date was actually in early January. But he was healthy enough to be born early if it so happened which it did!!! My sister-in-law Janelle had to have a C-section because he was breeched(again).... He was upside down before and Mark(my step-bro) was talking to his butt! It was funny. So Janelle is in some pain! Please pray for her that she will be feeling better everyday!! She and Chase is expected to come home on Christmas eve. Babies really are little miracles!!! I am just so happy for them! All of my siblings except my step-brother kevin is married and has at least one child. Well, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAVE A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! I love you all!!!!!


This picture is my nephew Chase!!! Isn't he a cutie????

Tis the Season

Things have been crazy busy because of work... and all the Christmas holiday stuff!!! My computer got a virus and it messed everything up so therefore, I was unable to be online a lot... I know some of you were wondering where I was and all. Well, now ya know! I am back and all is pretty good!!! Busy but good!! Merry Christmas to all of you!!!! I hope everyone is doing well!! Can't wait to catch up with some of you over the holiday! Love ya!

Making Pancakes

Making Pancakes
I got this from my friend Jessica, and decided to repost it because it's so good!Making PancakesSix -year-old Brandon decided one Saturday morning to fix his parentspancakes He found a big bowl and spoon, pulled a chair to the counter,opened the cupboard and pulled out the heavy flour canister, spilling iton the floor.He scooped some of the flour into the bowl with his hands, mixed inmost of a cup of milk and added some sugar, leaving a floury trail onthe floor which by now had a few tracks left by his kitten.Brandon was covered with flour and getting frustrated He wanted this tobe something very good for Mom and Dad, but it was getting very bad. Hedidn't know what to do next, whether to put it all into the oven or onthe stove and he didn't know how the stove worked!. Suddenly he saw hiskitten licking from the bowl of mix and reached to push her away,knocking the egg carton to the floor. Frantically he tried to clean upthis monumental mess but slipped on the eggs, getting his pajamas whiteand sticky.And just then he saw Dad standing at the door. Big crocodile tearswelled up in Brandon's eyes. All he'd wanted to do was something good,but he'd made a terrible mess. He was sure a scolding was coming, maybeeven a spanking. But his father just watched him.Then, walking through the mess, he picked up his crying son, hugged himand loved him, getting his own pajamas white and sticky in the process!That's how God deals with us. We try to do something good in life, butit turns into a mess. Our marriage gets all sticky or we insult afriend, or we can't stand our job, or our health goes sour.Sometimes we just stand there in tears because we can't think ofanything else to do. That's when God picks us up and loves us andforgives us, even though some of our mess gets all over Him.But just because we might mess up, we can't stop trying to "make pancakes" for God or for others. Sooner or later we'll get it right, andthen they'll be glad we tried...I was thinking. .. and I wondered if I had any wounds needing to behealed, friendships that need rekindling or three words needing to besaid. Sometimes, "I love you" can heal & bless! Remind every one of your friends that you love them. Even if you think they don't love back, you would be amazed at what those three little words, a smile, and a reminder like this can do.Just in case I haven't told you lately... I LOVE YOU!!!Please pass some of this love on to others....suppose one day youwere called to God; do all your friends know you love them?Send this to those you love. And never stop "making pancakes.""May you be blessed by the LORD, who made heaven and earth." Psalm 115:15

it's raining it's pouring, the old man is snoaring! heeh

Yes, that would be my mood.. haha! I am in a good mood! Its raining cats and dogs but I don't have to work today so it's all good!! I also have Sunday off... and then next week I work Monday-Thursday and have Friday and Sat. off!! yippy!! I am going on the womens retreat with CrossRoads next Friday!! I can't wait! It will be sooo much fun!!! This week went by soooo fast!!! I can't believe it! So yeah this week was pretty good. I have a new computer b/c my old one was about to die and so I was using our downstairs computer. I have a Dell computer! Its practically the same computer as downstairs which is very nice so I don't have to be like um... and how do I use this and all. Well, I will write more later!! I am hanging out with Rachel from CrossRoads at 3 and I have to get ready and all!! So ttyal!!!! love ya!!!

update galore!

Wow, I feel so bad not updating in such a long time!!!! I hope everyone is doing well!!!! I miss all of you!!! Things are going ok for me.. I got a BRAND NEW car!!!!!!!!! Thanks to my step-dad. It is a Honda Civic. The color is matellic greyish color... its pretty!! I love it!!! I really like working at Kohls.... I got hired at The Halloween Store but I am not going to work there for two reasons.... one being my step-brother knows the people who own the place and he found out that if you are under(doesn't matter how much) or over closing the drawer you get arrested..... I don't/can't have that happening to me... If anyone would like to know why just email me... Don't feel like getting into it.... And the other reason is also because my step-brother said he knows a lot of people that go into the hospital b/c of burn out once the store closes.... I need to be working but if I can endanger myself then I am not going to work there!!!! I don't really have that much else to say I hope you all are well! Love ya alls!!!

The Yellow T-shirt

The Yellow shirt The baggy yellow shirt had long sleeves, four extra-large pockets trimmed in black thread and snaps up the front. It was faded from years of wear, but still in decent shape. I found it in 1963 when I was home from college on Christmas break, rummaging through bags of clothes Mom intended to give away. "You're not taking that old thing, are you?" Mom said when she saw me packing the yellow shirt. "I wore that when I was pregnant with your brother in 1954!" "It's just the thing to wear over my clothes during art class, Mom. Thanks!" I slipped it into my suitcase before she could object. The yellow shirt be came a part of my college wardrobe. I loved it. After graduation, I wore the shirt the day I moved into my new apartment and on Saturday mornings when I cleaned. The next year, I married. When I became pregnant, I wore the yellow shirt during big-belly days. I missed Mom and the rest of my family, since we were in Colorado and they were in Illinois. But that shirt helped. I smiled, remembering that Mother had worn it when she was pregnant, 15 years earlier. That Christmas, mindful of the warm feelings the shirt had given me, I patched one elbow, wrapped it in holiday paper and sent it to Mom. When Mom wrote to thank me for her "real" gifts, she said the yellow shirt was lovely. She never mentioned it again. The next year, my husband, daughter and I stopped at Mom and Dad's to pick up some furniture. Days later, when we uncrated the kitchen table, I noticed something yellow taped to its bottom. The shirt! And so the pattern was set. On our next visit home, I secretly placed the shirt under Mom and Dad's mattress. I don't know how long it took for her to find it, but almost two years passed before I discovered it under the base of our living-room floor lamp. The yellow shirt was just what I needed now while refinishing furniture. The walnut stains added character. In 1975 my husband and I divorced. With my three children, I prepared to move back to Illinois. As I packed, a deep depression overtook me. I wondered if I could make it on my own. I wondered if I would find a job. I paged through the Bible, looking for comfort. In Ephesians, I read, "So use every piece of God's armor to resist the enemy whenever he attacks, and when it is all over, you will be standing up." I tried to picture myself wearing God's armor, but all I saw was the stained yellow shirt. Slowly, it dawned on me. Wasn't my mother's love a piece of God's armor? My courage was renewed. Unpacking in our new home, I knew I had to get the shirt back to Mother. The next time I visited her, I tucked it in her bottom dresser drawer. Meanwhile, I found a good job at a radio station. A year later I discovered the yellow shirt hidden in a rag bag in my cleaning closet. Something new had been added. Embroidered in bright green across the breast pocket were the words "I BELONG TO PAT." Not to be outdone, I got out my own embroidery materials and added an apostrophe and seven more letters. Now the shirt proudly proclaimed, "I BELONG TO PAT'S MOTHER." But I didn't stop there. I zig-zagged all the frayed seams, then had a friend mail the shirt in a fancy box to Mom from Arlington, VA. We enclosed an official looking letter from "The Institute for the Destitute," announcing that she was the recipient of an award for good deeds. I would have given anything to see Mom's face whe! n she opened the box. But, of course, she never mentioned it. Two years later, in 1978, I remarried. The day of our wedding, Harold and I put our car in a friend's garage to avoid practical jokers. After the wedding, while my husband drove us to our honeymoon suite, I reached for a pillow in the car to rest my head. It felt lumpy. I unzipped the case and found, wrapped in wedding paper, the yellow shirt. Inside a pocket was a note: "Read John 14:27-29. I love you both, Mother." That night I paged through the Bible in a hotel room and found the verses: "I am leaving you with a gift: peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give isn't fragile like the peace the world gives. So don't be troubled or afraid. Remember what I told you: I am going away, but I will come back to you again. If you really love me, you will be very happy for me, for now I can go to the Father, who is greater than I am. I have told you these things before they happen so that when they do, you will believe in me." The shirt was Mother's final gift. She had known for three months that she had terminal Lou Gehrig's disease. Mother died the following year at age 57. I was tempted to send the yellow shirt with her to her grave. But I'm glad I didn't, because it is a vivid reminder of the love-filled game she and I played for 16 years. Besides, my older daughter is in college now, majoring in art. And every art student needs a baggy yellow shirt with big pockets. You have 6 minutes.... There's some mighty fine advice in these words, even if you're not superstitious. This Lotus Totus has been sent To you for good luck from the Anthony Robbins organization. It has been sent around the world ten times so Far. You will receive good luck within four days of relaying this Lotus Totus. Do not keep this message. The Lotus Totus must leave your hands in 6 MINUTES. Otherwise you will get a very unpleasant surprise. This is true, even if you are not superstitious, agnostic, or otherwise faith impaired. Now, here's the FUN part! 1-4 people: Your life will improve slightly. 5-9 people: Your life will improve to your liking. 9-14 people: You will have at least 5 surprises in the next 3 weeks 15 and above: Your life will improve drastically and everything you ever dreamed of will begin to take shape. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

REALLY SAD!!!

This young lady was recently on Oprah and what a loving, forgiving young woman she is. An amazing story of what she has suffered and will bear the rest of her life. Please share this with your friends and especially your teenagers who are driving.

This is Jacqueline Saburido on September 19, 1999.

This is her and her Father, 1998.

This is her on Vacation in Venezuela.

Birthday party as a child.

At a party with friends.

This is Jacqueline's car. She was hit by another car that was driven by a 17-year old on his way home after drinking with his friends. This was in December 1999.

After the accident Jacqueline has needed over 40 operations.

Jacqueline was caught in the burning car and her body was heavily burnt during around 45 seconds.

With her Father, 2000.

Getting treatment.

Three months after the accident.

Without a left eyelid, Jacquie needs eye drops to keep her vision.

Now 20 years-old, he cannot forgive himself for driving drunk on that night three years ago.
He's aware of devastating Jacqueline Saburido's life.

Not everyone who gets hit with a car dies. This picture was taken 4 years after the accident and the doctors are still working on Jacqueline, whose body was covered 60% with severe burnings.
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Please send this to as many people as you can to make them aware of the consequences of drinking and driving.
PLEASE PASS THIS ON TO EVERYONE YOU KNOW!

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GAS PRICES SUCK!!!!

TRY TO SERIOUSLY FOLLOW UP ON THIS...AND REPOST IT.Dont Buy gas on September 3rd!!!! Boycotting the gas company will decrease the price dramatically. Ive checked into it and if over half the US didnt buy gas for 1 day, the gas companys would be close to bankrupcy!!! So Lets show them how to lower gas prices. So repost this to all your friends. We have to get the word out. Its NATIONAL DONT BUY GAS DAY!!! So repost it!!!
And yes GAS PRICES SUCK

Prayer

Hey all! I need you to be praying for me! My car died last Friday. I had lunch with my mentor(through CrossRoads) and then I drove home and got their fine, but it didn't sound like it was suppose to. I was really worried and I didn't want to drive to Kohls in fear of it not getting there and all. So I asked my mom if she could take me.. thankfully she did b/c my step-dad drove it and got some fluid and it died on him. So now it is at the shop and the guy is calling around(mostly to junk yards and all) to try and get a part for my poor car :( If he is able to get part it could be around $600 or if he has to get it from a regular shop it could be up to $1000!!! So, if anyone knows anyone who selling a car for pretty cheap(like 500-800) in good condition, low milage and all, please let me know!!! I am able to use my mom's car till Sunday.... they are away, but I can only use it for work and going to Christ Community and that's it. Hope everyone is doing well! Love ya all!!!

updates

Hey my wonderful friends,
I have been pretty busy. Some of you know my situation with work and all well... if ya don't them come talk to me b/c I don't feel like typing like a whole page and all.... plus it gets complicated. And I don't want to write the ending and all on here........ if ya know what I mean then you know why!!! Well, anywho! I have another job and a job interview. The job at ICING I think is falling through another story... But Kohls called me and said if I am still interested and all and I said yes I was. So I have orientation at Kohls tomorrow at 5 pm! yay! And then I have an interview at 2 for Giant. So who knows how that will go... I hope well!!! If anyone knows any families who have kids that need to be babysat let me know... I need money really bad..... Or if you know of any jobs that is pretty easy to get hired and all. Or volunteer opportunities let me know!!! Well, this is longer than I though it would be already.. so i am going to get going! ttyl!!! love ya all!

P.S. Nikki and Allen it was great to see you and it was a lot of fun having you come over to my house and go swimming. I hope you got back to Korea safely!!!! God bless! Love you both!!!

really awesome!!

The Resume' of Jesus ChristAddress: Ephesians 1:20Phone: Romans 10:13Website: The Bible. Keywords: Christ, Lord, Savior and JesusHello. My name is Jesus -The Christ. Many call me Lord! I've sent you my resume' because I'm seeking the top management position in your heart. Please consider my accomplishments as set forth in my resume'.QualificationsI founded the earth and established the heavens, (See Proverbs 3:19)I formed man from the dust of the ground, (See Genesis 2:7)I breathed into man the breath of life, (See Genesis 2:7)I redeemed man from the curse of the law, (See Galatians 3:13)The blessings of the Abrahamic Covenant comes upon your life through me, (See Galatians 3:14)Occupational BackgroundI've only had one employer, (See Luke 2:49).I've never been tardy, absent, disobedient, slothful or disrespectful.My employer has nothing but rave reviews for me, (See Matthew 3:15-17)Skills Work ExperiencesSome of my skills and work experiences include: empowering the poor to be poor no more, healing the brokenhearted, setting the captives free, healing the sick, restoring sight to the blind and setting at liberty them that are bruised, (See Luke 4:18).I am a Wonderful Counselor, (See Isaiah 9:6). People who listen to me shall dwell safely and shall not fear evil, (See Proverbs 1:33).Most importantly, I have the authority, ability and power to cleanse you of your sins, (See I John 1:7-9)Educational BackgroundI encompass the entire breadth and length of knowledge, wisdom and understanding, (See Proverbs 2:6).In me are hid all of the treasures of wisdom and knowledge, (See Colossians 2:3).My Word is so powerful; it has been described as being a lamp unto your feet and a lamp unto your path, (See Psalms 119:105).I can even tell you all of the secrets of your heart, (See Psalms 44:21).Major AccomplishmentsI was an active participant in the greatest Summit Meeting of all times, (See Genesis 1:26).I laid down my life so that you may live, (See II Corinthians 5:15).I defeated the archenemy of God and mankind and made a show of them openly, (See Colossians 2:15).I've miraculously fed the poor, healed the sick and raised the dead!There are many more major accomplishments, too many to mention here. You can read them on my website, which is located at: www dot - the BIBLE. You don't need an Internet connection or computer to access my website.ReferencesBelievers and followers worldwide will testify to my divine healings, salvation, deliverance, miracles, restoration and supernatural guidanceIn SummationNow that you've read my resume', I'm confident that I'm the only candidate uniquely qualified to fill this vital! position in your heart. In summation, I will properly direct your paths, (See Proverbs 3:5-6), and lead you into everlasting life, (See John 6:47). When can I start? Time is of the essence, (See Hebrews 3:15).Send this resume' to everyone you know, you never know who may have an opening! Thanks for your help and may God! bless you!

this is sooo awesome and encouraging!!!!!!!

John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!"He was a natural motivator.If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked him, "I don't get it!You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"He replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or ... you can choose to be in a bad mood.I choose to be in a good mood."Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or...I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it.Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or... I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life."Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested."Yes, it is," he said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people affect your mood.You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live your life."I reflected on what he said. Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.Several years later, I heard that he was involved in a serious accident, falling some 60 feet from a communications tower.After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from the hospital with rods placed in his back.I saw him about six months after the accident.When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins Wanna see my scars?"I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his mind as the accident took place."The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my soon-to-be born daughter," he replied. "Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or...I could choose to die. I chose to live.""Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked.He continued, "..the paramedics were great.They kept telling me I was going to be fine.But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'. I knew I needed to take action.""What did you do?" I asked."Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me," said John. "She asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes, I replied.' The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Gravity'."Over their laughter, I told them, "I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead."He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude... I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully.Attitude, after all, is everything.Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34.After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.You have two choices now:01. Delete this.02. Forward it to the people you care about.You know the choice I made.God Bless, and smile,it could be contagious

another job possibility!

Hey all! On Saturday, I got a call from Kohls saying that they want to work their. So it is an awesome dillema!!! Please pray that everything works out. All I have to do is go take a pee test!! hehe!! That shouldn't be too hard since I drink probably 5 bottles of water a day!!!! Yucky antibiotics(and the heat)!!! Well, just wanted to update all of you!!!! Have a great weekend! love ya all!!

Hey all!!!

The Wonderful Holy Spirit Looking away [from all that will distract] to Jesus, Who is the Leader and the Source of our faith... —Hebrews 12:2 Do you fellowship with your problem or with the Lord? The devil wants us to think about our problem, worry about our problem, talk about and try to reason out our problem. God desires for us to spend time with Him, talk to Him, and think about Him and His Word. Jesus is the One we are to look to in order to have our needs met. If we dwell in Him, our problem has no power over us, but if we dwell on the problem, we magnify it above Him. The more attention we give our problem, the more we feed it, the more power it has over us.For whatever issues you're going through, whether it be financial, hardship, your job, your school, anything little or anything big, just cast your care on the Lord. Fellowship with God. Don't fellowship with the problem. When you do that, the more upset you will become.The devil starts the problem rolling. The more you think, worry, reason, talk, plan, and scheme about it, the bigger it gets. If you look to Jesus, you will experience the miracle power of God as you trust in Him.Do This: Forget your problems. Don't think about them, worry about them, or talk about them. Fellowship with God instead, and you will enjoy life tremendously.

JOB

I got the job!!!!!!!!!!! She called me while I was at church and I called her back at like 12:45 and one of the people who work their said the manager was busy. So I called back at like 2:05 or so and she said I passed the phone thing and so I got the job!!!!!!!! She asked me to come in at 6 tonight to meet another manager I guess a department manager or something like that!! Well, that's my news for today!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!

good news

Hey all! Sorry I haven't updated much lately. I have been really busy!!! I have been helping Ruth with her house and moving in today... It has been one heck of a week!!! I have gotten yelled sorta by my step-dad about not getting a job and for sitting around and being on the computer. That's one of the reasons I have not been on the computer often. I have been just checking my email and that's about all. I have some good news. Today I went to the mall and filled out applications to 6 stores!!! KandB Toys, Yankee Candle, ICING, FYE, Hallmark and the Disney Store. Well, I filled out the ICING application right in the store. And then I told the lady I would be in the mall for a while and to call my cell phone when her manager had looked over my application. Well, the manager called me at around 3 and was like can you come in on Monday for an interview and I asked if I could come today since I was at the mall anyway. And she was like yeah at 4. So I went to the interview and she was REALLY excited. I think I might have gotten the job! I will let you all know!!!! I had to take this phone questionare(dumb thing) as part of the interview process. It was pretty easy except they asked a lot of questions. I was on the phone for probably a half hour. But anywho! They are looking for someone over the age of 18 so I definitley qualify!! hehe!! And she was just soooo excited that I came because she had an interview sheduled for 3 with another person and they never showed up. Please be praying for me the next couple of days. I really think I got this job in the bag!! so to speak... But anyway I hope all of you are doing well! I miss you all! Love ya!!!!

To all my friends!!!!

I love you all! Hope you are all well!!!! MUAH!!!!!!!

think about this... You may not realize it, but it's 100% true. *PLEASE READ THIS WHOLE POST IT'S SO DAMN TRUE*

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

sorry didn't work!

Hey all! I am sorry it didn't work! It was a quiz I took on myspace and I wanted to post it on here. Oh well! Have a great day! Love ya all!

Jen

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Don't know if this will work!!! If not oh well!!!!!

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How Good are you at Certain Things?
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Romance - 9%
Self - Control - 99%
Kissing - 44%
Cuddling - 45%
Kinkiness - 83%
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A Rosebud

A young, new priest was walking with an older, more seasoned priest in the garden one day. Feeling a bit insecure about what God had for him to do, he was asking the older priest for some advice. The older priest walked up to a rose bush and handed the young priest a rosebud and told him to open it without tearing any of the petals. The young priest looked in disbelief at the older priest and was trying to figure out what a rosebud could possibly have to do with his wanting to know the will of God for his life and ministry. But, because of his great respect for the older priest, he proceeded to try and unfold the rosebud while keeping every petal intact. . It wasn't long before he realized how impossible this was to do. Noticing the young priest's inability to unfold the rosebud without tearing it, the older priest began to recite the following poem:
It is only a tiny rosebud A flower of God's design; But I cannot unfold the petals With these clumsy hands of mine. The secret of unfolding flowers Is not known to such as I. GOD opens this flower so sweetly, Then, in my hands, they die. If I cannot unfold a rosebud, The flower of God's design, Then how can I have the wisdom To unfold this life of mine? So, I'll trust in Him for leading Each moment of my day. I will look to Him for His guidance Each step of the Pilgrim's way The pathway that lies before me Only my Heavenly Father knows. I'll trust him to unfold the moments, Just as He unfolds the rose.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, and an entire lifetime to forget them. Send this message to the people you will never forget, and remember to send it also to the person who sent it to you. It's a short message to let them know that you'll never forget them. If you don't send it to anyone, it means you're in too much of a hurry. Take the time to LIVE!!! Distance and time may separate us, but friendship will never die...

Isn't It Strange

Isn't it strange how a 20 dollar bill seems like such a large amount when you donate it to church, but such a small amount when you go shopping?
Isn't it strange how 2 hours seem so long when you're at church, and how short they seem when you're watching a good movie?
Isn't it strange that you can't find a word to say when you're praying,but you have no trouble thinking what to talk about with a friend?
Isn't it strange how difficult and boring it is to read one chapter of the Bible, but how easy it is to read 100 pages of a popular novel?
Isn't it strange how everyone wants front-row-tickets to concerts or games, but they do whatever is possible to sit in the last row in Church?
Isn't it strange how we need to know about an event for Church 2-3 weeks before the day so we can include it in our agenda, but we can adjust it for other events in the last minute?
Isn't it strange how difficult it is to learn a fact about God to share it with others, but how easy it is to learn, understand,extend and repeat gossip?
Isn't it strange how we believe everything that magazines and newspapers say, but we question the words in the Bible?
Isn't it strange how everyone wants a place in heaven, but they don't want to believe, do, or say anything to get there?
Isn't it strange how we send jokes in e-mails and they are forwarded right away,but when we are going to sendmessages about God, we think about it twice before we share it with others?
IT'S STRANGE ISN'T IT? Now that you've read this repost it by today. If you don't do it not only you will deprive yourself from being blessed,but you will also do that to others who may need God in their life.better yet, repost if you believe in God.

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You Will Die at Age 79

79 You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.

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update

Hey all! I am sorry for not updating recently. It has been really busy. Some of you know if not most of you know I do not work at Boscov's anymore. Thats a long story in itself. But I am glad I don't have to be used as much and upset as much. I really screwed up but we all have to live and learn and learn from our mistakes, which is what I am doing and I need daily reminders of this frequently! A lot has been going on. I have been busy looking for a new job. I am meeting this lady and her kids on Wednesday in hopes of babysitting/nanny for her 2 kids. If you guys wouldn't mind praying for me this week. I really need to find a job and quick. In time I will tell all of you the reason I am not working at Boscov's, but right now I can't because of a few reasons. One, I don't feel like talking about it, two I can't talk about it to many people. If you already know please don't say anything b/c I have been kicking myself in the butt for a while now! And I am so mad at myself! But anyway! Life goes on and then you die! I will talk to you all later! Love you all! Take care!!!

PRAYER!!!!!!!!

I did something incredibly stupid and now I got fired from Boscov's. I don't/can't talk about it right now. Let's just say I did something stupid and didn't know what the I was doing. I just need prayer and a miracle. Will talk later!

Nikki and Allen,
I hope you have a very safe trip to the USA! Take care and I can't wait to see you guys! Love ya!
Jen

updates

Hey all! Sorry for not posting in a long while. A lot has been going on. Things are pretty good. Busy but other than that fine. I think I have already told most of you our kitchen and laundry room are done! It was kind of a pain because we couldn't really "cook". We also could not wash our clothes here because we didn't have our dish washer. We had to wash our dishes in the bathroom sink so therefore we didn't use many dishes like silverware or plates or cups. My mom had to bring our dirty clothes to the laundromat. Which was a pain for her because she is a busy lady! It took like 2-3 hrs I think to get our laundry done. And for some reason the dryer didn't dry our clothes all the way. Oh well. Nothing we can do about that. School is/has been done for 2 weeks or so now! Thank God! I already said I failed math, but you know I don't really care that much! Work is the same old thing. I get so pissed at some of the people their at times. Other times its like different and most of us get along. I don't know... all I can say is Welcome back to high school folks!!!! I swear it is just like hs with all the people talking behind your back. I know you get that any where. Well, I guess thats about it. Thank God summer is on it's way! I can't wait until my pool is open so I can go swimming!!!!!!! Love you all!

Need serious Pray.

Today I was driving and I went to Main Street with two of my friends, and when we were on the way home my steering wheel started to lock up on my when I was turning so I have to like work at the turn. And this light with this battery thing is on and I don't know what that means. I am like really scared!!!!!! I don't know what is wrong. Does anyone know what this means? I am afraid that it means my car is going to die soon. Any suggestions? Hope everyone is well!

Prayers

I have a few prayer requests! One is for finals this week. I had my Science one today and I have World Religion tomorrow and then Wed. (laura) and I have math and Thursday I have Abnormal Psy. which is my last final. I do not test well. Even if I study I blank out and forget everything I studied. My second request is for getting a new job. I went to The Mustard Seed today and got an application. I really want a new job. Obviously, b/c I won't have to work Sunday's which are often one of the busiest days. I think this is the perfect job right now for me. And another one is that I get rid of this cold... I don't even know how I got it. Well, thats all for now. Hope everyone is doing well!!!!! I love you all!

Shout out to Nikki

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKKI!!!! I hope you have a wonderful birthday!!!! May God bless you today and always!!!!!!!!!!! Love you lots!!! Take care!!!! Happy B-day!

semi-busy week

The next couple of weeks are going to be pretty busy I think. As I said in my previous blog I have my last week of classes this week and then finals next week. I am always busy on Thursday's as most of you know. I have class 12-3:30 on Thursday and then I go straight to CrossRoads to set-up. And I don't get home until like 11 at night sometimes. And then I will be working Friday and Saturday 3 till close. Exhausting but at least its not the shift from last week starting at 1 which is even more exhausting. Oh well. And I think I have off on Sunday since I worked this past Sunday, but who knows. I am probably going to get to see my grandmom and aunt if I have off and have dinner with them and then go to the Bridge at 7:30. I hope I will be able to see my grandmom! She is an awesome person and she spoils me... lol!!! I just felt like writing more so I blogged twice today. Well, I am running out of things to type. So I will end this now! more later! Love ya all!!!!

May already?!?!

As my title says May already! I can not believe how fast this semester has gone, not that I am not happy!!!!!!!! Its been one heck of a semester let me tell you! I wish I was done, but I am not. This is my last week of classes! Praise the Lord! And then next week I have finals. I have a question/ want opinion on something. One of my professors he invites his classes to The Winner's Circle next Friday. Do you think that is right for a teacher to do this? He's a really cool guy and very relaxed in his teaching. Let me know what you guys think. My weekend was pretty good. I worked most of it. I went to the Bridge on Sunday. I am loving the Bridge as always! Nothing is really new with me right now! I will talk to you all later! Love ya!

Weekend

Hey all! My weekend was pretty good! I worked on Friday 1:30 till close and then I like crashed after that! I was totally drained and tired it was not even funny! I had Saturday and Sunday off from work!! It was so much fun. I have not had off both days in like such a while!!!!! I just relaxed a lot of it. Saturday morning I went to my church and saw some of my moms CCD class get their 1st Communion which was sooooo cute! Their were two girls I knew and both of them because I have babysat them and one of them lives in my neighborhood. And then I hung out with my friend Katrin and her boyfriend and we went out to eat at Appittites on Main and then we went back to her house and played Dutch Blitz and her parents were watching a movie called Cellcular it was a creepy movie but it was pretty good. And then I went home around 11:30. On Sunday I didn't really do much. I worked on math and my math test. Bridge went two services which is really neat. But it was confusing also because we weren't sure when to go in and all because the Bridge band was still playing. But it was really neat! The only thing I really didn't like is that we get out late and then we are very limited to were to go out to grab a bite to eat. So that was my weekend! It was fun but it was more relaxing than anything. I think I definitley needed a relaxing weekend. I will talk to you all later! Love ya all!

nothing new

Hey my wonderful and beautiful friends! I just felt like typing a little sumthin for yas!!!! hehehe! No, I am not on anything! I just felt like talking/typing that way! I don't have that much time because I am at school and my next class starts in like 20 minutes. As my title says there's nothing really new happening with me. My kitchen is finished PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!! No more drilling and banging!!!! YIPPY!!!! The semester is almost done thank God! I can't wait until summer! I am soooo tired of doing everything school related. I am soo tired right now. But oh well! I am almost done. Hope everyone has a wonderful day and a wonderful weekend! If anyone is available to do something this weekend let me know!!!! I actually have off Saturday and Sunday!!!!! Well ttyl!!! I hope to see some of you at CrossRoads tonight!!! If not, I will be thinking of you! Love you all! Take care!!!!!

my weekend and Bridge

Hey my loving friends! This past week and weekend have definitley been a trial!!!! I had to work and it was not fun!!! On Friday I actually was suppose to have off, but because of my other co-worker having a cyst in her leg she is not able to work for a while. So needless to say I had to work for her. It wouldnt have been as big a deal, but its like every time I am scheduled off for some reason or another I always have to work. It was crazy busy and of course I was by myself for the night and it sucks because it would bec0me busy sporadically! Then, I was hoping to have to work on Sunday and then I was like no I don't want to work because I had a 5 page paper due today(Monday). As it turns out, I was not scheduled to work! Praise the Lord! I was going to go to Christ Community Church at 10:30 but that never happened b/c I know myself well enough to get down to buisness and to start writing/typing my paper. It's a good thing I did not go because it took a LONG time to write it. I always wasn't feeling up to sitting b/c I had cramps and all so I was feeling a little nause. I worked on my paper from 10 till about 4:45(with breaks in between. I was debating about going to the Bridge and I was like I really need/want to go and be in fellowship with other Christians my age and with people who love me for me and to worship the greatest thing that has ever happened to me!!!! I went and boy was I glad I went!!!! Charles Deza and Michelle and there band sang/performed and they did an awesome job! The sermon was on sex. I was like ummm ok then! But it was interesting. Phil makes everything funny and it was funny how he said stuff. Then at the end this lady and guy named Adam told us their testimony. Adam's was really awesome! It hit me in a way that I could relate to some of what he has gone through. He was sexually abused as a child(teen not sure) and I was also. I know I haven't told most of you but I am at the point where I just don't care anymore. I need to surrender it to God in order for my to really be healed. And Adam also said how he felt like a failure at times well I know I feel like that also and it hurts sometimes. While he was speaking he got choked up a couple of times and he was tearing up and it made me start crying. I have a tendency to cry when others are crying... God was definitley speaking through him for many reasons and I think one was to help me trust him. There was an awesome worship time afterward and after the first song on the second set Adam and the other girl got baptized.. It was awesome. After the worship was over we stayed a little while. I felt funny. I wasn't myself. And others noticed and I was like Im fine, im just tired. We went to UNO's and I wasn't really "there". more in a minute.........

continued Bridge....

While we were deciding on where to go and all, I didn't really want to go to Uno's. I wasn't acting my normal self. I am not sure what was wrong with me, but I had a heavy heart and I was just thinking about a lot of stuff especially about what Adam said and Jeff dying and life. I don't know why but I wasn't really in the mood for pizza.. I have never been there before so I didn't know they had other stuff so yeah. While we were at Uno's I wasn't feeling very well(cramps and finger hurt -blood blister), but I stayed b/c I didn't feel like going home and working on the paper just yet. So we stayed till close to 11 o'clock and then I went home. At the restruant I was still not myself. And everyone knew it too. I am like an open boook! So I just said i was ok, just tired which was partly true. Then we went our seperate ways. I then went home and worked till I couldn't see straight pretty much. I finally got done at 2 am. Man was I tired!!!!! While I was finishing writing my paper I was talking to people on AIM and one of those people was Lynette and I was telling her about how Adam's words impacted me and how I was sexually abused as a kid and all. She was very caring and loving and it helped me even though its kind of hard to tell over an instant message. She said something I told her a little bit ago that really helped me! She said that God is carrying me now and he has been and that I have to trust in him(in a nut shell). Although, Lynette and most of my other friends don't get to hang out that often we still have great talks and relate better to each other. Lynette I love you babe! Thanks again! Probably if I hadn't been talking online, I might have gotten done writing my paper earlier, but I was kind of having a writers block. What more can you say about the weather????? And it had to be 5 FULL pages and if it wasn't 5 full pages we would get an automatic F! How unfair is that?????? Oh well! But I finally finished it and it is turned in now! I didn't want to make this soooooo long but sometimes it just happens and you can't do anything about it!!! As Becca said this is a place were we can just lay out our hearts pretty much and I definitley agree because I can't tell most people about my life in person... sometimes I can and I am getting better talking with others about problems I face and all. Well, Im going to go to bed before I fall asleep at the computer desk!!!!! lol! I love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PRAYERS!!!!

Hey to all my friend! Last night(not sure what time) a lady from my work, her house had caught on fire and her mom didn't make it. Please be praying for her family. The lady I work with her name is Christina and she was really close with her mom. They lived together in Philadelphia. Boscov's is going to be raising money for Christina. I think I am going to talk to Scott and see if we can raise money also. Christina was working last night and she does not drive so she has to take the bus. Sometimes she will leave at 9:15 instead of 9:45 and I am not sure what time she left last night(i wasn't working then) but she probably got home right in the middle of everthing. I heard the she has a sister that lives near here, but they do not get along. She was suppose to work today but obviously she didn't work. It is soooo sad. Please keep Christina in your prayers! And don't take life for granted! God may just have other plans for your life!!!!!! I love you all!

Friday

Hey all, again I am sorry for not posting in a while! I think I think others blogs faster than I post on my own!!! Thats really sad! There's not a whole lot going on with me. Our kitchen and laundry room are almost finished. When you see it you will be like what the heck?! It looks totally totally different!!!!!! They are putting up the tile/blacksplash I think its also called. And then they are pretty much finished!!!! There isnt anything else really going on right now!! So I will talk to you all later! Hope everyone is doing well! Love you lots!

stinky days

Hey to all my friends! Hope everyone is doing well! I am once again sorry for not updating frequently as I use to, but with people working at my house it is kind of difficult..... not to mention today was a stinky day literally!!!!! About 9 this morning my cat(toonces) gets sprayed by a skunk and so my mom brought toonces in through the front door to the back porch because she thought he was dying because his eyes where watering and he was foaming at the mouth.... He wasn't dying! He was just reacting to being sprayed directly in the face!!!! So, not to mention it stunk up the WHOLE house and it still smells in some places! Its not fun! I was really nausuated by the smell this morning. I was like I have to get out of this house. Our kitchen has been making progress!!! A lot of the cabinets are in and it looks more like a kitchen... Once it is finished I will let you guys come see it if you want to... the cabinets are made by the amish... our whole kitchen and laundry room will be done by the amish!!! Very good quality! Update on the boy situation..... if you guys have been wondering nothing really has been happening with that.... We basically have been talking and thats it. I am just trying to get to know him and be his friend first and if God wants something else to happen between us He will allow it!!!! I am going to get going now because let me tell you I am EXHAUSTED!!!!! I went to bed at 1:30 and got up at 6:30 then 7:30 and then for good at 9. So I am falling asleep at the computer! ttfn! Lots of love!

Good news

My dad is doing great!!!! Praise the Lord!!!! He had two doctors appointments. One was with the surgeon and that was Monday and then Tuesday was with his cardiologist. The surgeon said that he is able to drive short distances..... And it has only been a month!!!!!!! How awesome is that??? So everything is going really well with that! Our kitchen is still a mess but they were able to get the floor down in 3 days(Wed., Thursday and Friday). I am not sure when it will actually be done. But I can tell you right now I am not liking this...... I going out a lot more because of it. And I have been getting up at 8:30 compared to 10:00 everyday and then I just get sooo wiped out from the day. They said it might take longer than they thought. My parents aren't going to Mrtyle Beach this year and they always go. And so everything is messed up now! I was going to have a friend come over. Oh well. Its not like I can't still do something..... Anyway that kind of frustrated me when I found out about that, but ya know it makes sense because if he needs to rest they will have to go back to their room and just relax. It is a golfing trip. So anywho on with more stuff. I am going to have dinner with Brad which is the guy who likes me from work. We are going to go to the food court. I think that is really good first "date"/getting to know someone. I will let you guys know what happens and all. Please pray for me... I have never been on a date! Well, ttfn! Love you alls!!!!!

sad times...

Hey all! This weekend one of my mom's co-workers has passed away. He has been sick for a little while and then he died on Saturday. He was at the Chester County Hospital. His name is Jay. Please pray for his family. And also for my mom's work because he was their for a while. Two people went to visit him like 2 weeks ago or so and they said he didn't like that great. The doctor's didn't know what was causing him to be sick. He is in a better place now. I don't know if the doctor's figured out what was wrong or not. Well.... I guess he lived a good life. He died at age 70. Thats all for now folks.... hehe

need advice

Hey all! Sorry again that I haven't written in a while. I am just so busy with school and all. I do check everyone's everyday though I just find it hard to write everyday sometimes. I really need your advice!!! I just found out today at work from another co-worker that another co-worker is interested in me. I don't know how to feel. He has told her(like two weeks ago) that I am pretty and my eyes are pretty and I had gotten a make-over from the cosmetics person one time and he had said i looked really pretty. As I have told some of you before I have never been in a relationship with anyone and I don't know what to say or do. We including the one who told me are probably going to go out to dinner one time and all. I guess this is God's timing for me? I don't know. I am kind of nervous. I know who he is and I talk to him and he is nice. If it is God's will for my life right now, than He will allow me to start a relationship with him. Do any of you have any advice for me? I will let you know updates on this.

updates

Hey all! I think everyone hasn't been updating there blogs that frequently! It is a very busy time of the year right now with school and work and everything. So I am sorry(also) for not posting in a while. I have a ever said that I don't like snow and I am tired of it. Things at home are rough right now. And they will just get even rougher. We are getting our kitchen re-done. We have a new refidgerator(sp?) and we just put everything in their today. My mom has already been taking the stuff in the kitchen and put them in boxes and put them downstairs. Everything will be a mess pretty soon. They start on Monday. It was suppose to be last week but they had to push it back another week which is actually really good with Kevin recovering and all. Kevin is doing very well. He has been out and about picking out stoves and all. He gets tired but he's doing really good. He has been using those wheel chair things when they go out to look at stuff for the kitchen. He had a doctors appointment on Tuesday and they said everything looks good. So, that is definitley a praise!!! Please continue to pray for us. We will have a lot of people coming in and out of our house for the next 3 weeks probably. But the end result will be really cool!!!! My brothers are coming tomorrow and moving the old fridge down to the basement and move the kitchen table and do other lifting stuff!! yippy! No more eating in the kitchen. We will be eating in our living room which has the new refridgerator(sp?) and its also were our fusball table is... I have to work tonight 5-9:45 and then I was suppose to have off tomorrow but last Sunday my manager called and asked me if I could work 12-6 and I said ok whatever...... Not that I really want to, but the extra money will be nice. I am also probably going to get yelled at tomorrow(yippy) not..... Stacey our manager said not to open coats to Angie last Wednesday and then to me last Friday she tells me I am working in coats and Angie was in dresses. I told Angie Friday night and she gets really ticked off and tells me to call her on her cell so I did. And she tells me that Stacey told her not to open coats. Well, I come in Sunday morning at 9:30 and one of the store managers comes down and says that angie has to work in Petites at 3:45(she came in at 11)... So we were like we are not opening coats since she had to go to Petites at 3:45... 4 hours of having coats open?? thats kind of dumb to have it open. This past Monday Angie gets yelled at for not opening it by another co-worker.... big long story... Needless to say I am not very happy going in today or tomorrow. Talk to you all later!!!! Love you all! Hope you are doing well!

math problems

As most of you know, I do not like math at all. I am struggling again with Math for Edu. majors. I am starting worry that I am not in the right field of study. I know I can be wrong, but I don't know. Please pray for me for this. I am going to be praying also. I failed a test I took tonight and I am so pissed at myself. I don't test well, but that's not really an excuse. Oh well. My teacher was like maybe you should take it during a class that has it twice a week that way your not just looking at it Wednesday night and then again like Tuesday night and Wednesday during the day. That might be what I need to do. I wish I could have the same teacher I had last semester but she can't teach this... she's not certified to teach anything higher than 060 which is like pre-algebra. So ya.... that is my concern right now. Update on my dad: He is doing very well! He got the mail on Tuesday. He has been walking around. Doing computer work for his buisness(sp). We have a outpatient nurse that comes and checks on him she came Sunday and a different nurse came Tuesday and then the same nurse is coming Friday I think. So far she has said everything is great. And that it is a miracle that they found the anerysm!! We already knew that though!!!! hehe! When I know something new I will let you guys know! I love you all and thank you sooooo much for praying for us. We really really appreciate it!

Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day to all of you! It's another Valentine's by myself... oh well! Guess Im not special enough! lol! Just kidding! I know I am special but not in that way to most guys. I guess that God doesn't want me to have any relationships with guys yet and that's fine, but it does get a little lonesome and tiring. I am going to a Valentine's Day party. This will be interesting..... I have never been to a V-day party besides elementary school(miss those days hehehe). I know 3 people who have their birthday's today. So Happy Birthday Becca, Mom, and my Aunt Moe(dad's sister)!!!!! It is so hard to find cards that are both Valentine's and Birthday all in one. In the Giant shopping center where Hallmark is I found 3 cards that were both and they weren't that good. I am not that fond of V-day either. I think it is a weird day. Most couples are going to do stuff that they don't think they will do b/c it is Valentine's Day. Or that they wouldn't normally do...... But yeah... I guess I will feel like this until someone sweeps me off my feet! Well, for all the love birds have a great time together! And everyone have a Happy Valentines Day! Happy birthday Becca!!!!! Love you all!

great news!!!!!!!

I have great news!!!! My dad is home from the hospital!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!! Please pray for a fast recovery and that he will continue to get better everyday! He didn't sleep that well last because they brought another guy into the same room and the guy had a rough night and was doing to good. Please pray also for my brother Kevin becuase he can be the biggest pain in the you know what. He doesn't clean up after himself or if he does it is like much later and he just does whatever he pleases! My mom was at the hospital all day yesterday and when she came home at like 9:30 10 o'clock there was dishes and stuff in the sink and my mom had to do them. Pray that he will be helpful during our dad's recovery. He is staying longer b/c of his surgery. He was going to moving out of the house in to Conshohoken area. Because that is near where he teaches. Well, i hope all of you have a wonderful weekend! I know I am. I got to see my friends last night and we had dinner together. And today I am going over to friends house and hanging out with them! Love you guys!

a good day

Hey all! My dad is doing a lot better! He was doing excercises today at the hospital to get stronger. He did the bicycle and I don't know whatelse he did. But I know it wore him out. I am going to go see him later today... I'm not sure when though. I went to my Earth Science class today and it was sooooooo boring!!!!!! The subject was interesting. We were talking about earthquakes, but the way he teaches it is really boring. We watched a movie and took notes from the over head. I am not going to my math class tonight so I can see my dad because I am going to go to classes tomorrow 12-3:30 and then CrossRoads tomorrow night and so I won't see him till Friday... which might be the day he will be coming home, but if it isn't Friday it will be sometime this weekend!!!!! I think one of the reasons I am soooo tired is because of all the sitting and waiting we had to do.... We just sat there from 6:30-10 on Monday and then 11-3 on Tuesday.... We couldn't see him on Monday that much b/c he had just gotten done the surgery at 9 and he had to put into bed and tucked in... and then as I said before my mom and Mark got to see him but then his blood pressure was high so we couldn't see him and then I went home with my brother Kevin at 10 and then I guess he was stable enough that they could see him again. So we just waited in the waiting room for like hours and you can sit for only so long. My mom couldn't sit b/c she was anxious and couldn't sit still. Well, I will keep you guys updated! Lots of love! And thanks again for the prayers! Keep on praying for a speedy recovery!!!!!

Day 2

My dad is doing a lot better!!!!! Thank you for the prayers.... He is in the home stretch it's just recovery time. My mom called the kids at 6 am and told them great news. She called me at 9 and told me the same. He was awake and they could take the breathing tube out! His color was back to normal. And everything was good! My brother Mark and my sister Michele and I left my house at 10 and got to the hospital at 11 which starts visiting hours. We didn't see my mom or our aunt moe in the waiting room where we were the other night so we checked to see if they were with our dad and they were. He was awake and talking. His hands and feet/legs where a little swollen. He didn't know that they had to replace his valve. He asked the nurse and she didn't know and it was when my mom was in the room and she said yes they did. He looked pretty good. His color looked better. This is the first time I have ever seen him like this and seeing him nervous. All of us were tired this morning especially my brother Mark... he didn't sleep well b/c he wanted to be able to hear the phone incase someone called. They weren't able to do the test to see if he had a stroke, but the nurse said he didn't because she knows how they are if they have had one. So praise the Lord on that!!! They werten't able to test it because he was sleeping or something like that. He was making jokes and acting like his usual self.. Of course he wasn't walking around but my mom misunderstood what he had said because his voice is a whisper practically and he got angry at her... and he wanted her to hold his hand and she didn't understand that and so she laid her hand on his hand. He is doing much better and he will continue to do better everday!!!! Please keep praying for a good recovery!!! And please pray that none of my other family members have this because Dr. Bavarin(the surgeon) said it is hereditary! Well, if you have any other questions ask me!

tears and surgery

Just looking at the subject is what happened tonight! Surgery went fine. The only thing that the surgeon had to do that we knew about, but wasn't sure needed to be done was having to replace the valve because of the stress that the anerysm caused!!! The surgery was obviously going to be a little longer then they had expected. It was pushed back a lot because of the surgery before him. His surgery was scheduled between 11-12 and they didn't start till 3 but really 2:24... they started the anthesia like I said in the other blog. And so they started at 3ish and they had to stop his heart to fix the problem and all. Im sorry but I am exhausted from crying and I need some sleep.... I will finish sometime tomorrow!!! Please continue to pray!!! He is not out of the whole yet!!! Their is a chance he may have a stroke or has already had one and when he wakes up he will try to take the breathing tubes out which is normal! Good night all! I know this is hard but this is the truth in what is happening!!! I have been crying off and on so I am going to go to bed and am going back to the hospital at 10..... and come home around 2:30 or so.... love you all! please keep us in prayer!!!! I am sooo scared and worried and it is scary because I have never seen him like this...... If any of you have seen my dad you know how he is.... He is always cracking a joke or teasing around but he's just lying unconscience in a hospital bed!!!!! more later....

dads surgery

Hey all! Please continue to pray. They had a later start than they thought. They got there at like 8 am. And they had to wait until 11:30 this morning to start stuff. Since they had to wait, my dad took my mom over to the hotel where she will be sleeping tonight and was able to check in and get stuff there and all. Which is good. Then they went back to University of Penn. Hospital and then I guess just waited and checked in and all. Then they didn't get him in till 2:24 and then I just got a call from my mom about 3:50 saying that they just started the anthesia and they will start the surgery. I am not going until 6:30 now..... argh!!! oh well!!!! My brother Mark is coming to get me and my sister Michele is coming here and we will go there at 6:30 or so. It keeps getting pushed back and all. I got to see my grandmom and aunt and they are here now..... so I better get going!!! I will try and update as soon as I know something! Like I said before if you want to know anything let me know... give me a call on my cell!!! Love you all! Please keep praying!!!! Surgery is on right now I think......

weekend

My weekend was pretty good..... other than the fact the Eagles choked once again!!!!! Dumb Eagles at least they tried. But they just didn't play like they wanted to win. But anyway!!!! Work was pretty good on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Friday I got a little present from a customer that my manager, another co-worker and I had helped the day after New Years. It was a cute mug that had bugs on it and it said "quit bugin me".And then Friday I got my hair cut. I had to go back to get it re-done into what "i really wanted". My co-worker deb was like they didn't do anything to it. So she was like go back and get it re-done. And I was like whatever. She called the place and acted like me and said I wasn't happy with it and it wasn't what I wanted. They charged me for a $7 blow dry which is totally unfair b/c when I went back to Boscov's my hair was still damp. So I went back and she cut more off... gave me bangs, and layers in my hair. It is starting to grow on me. But it is a little short. And deb was like next time go a little shorter and towards my face more. I was like whatever. And then the whole weekend I got yelled at for having my hair up. I put it up twice yesterday because I was sooo hot at work. And today because I wore an Eagles hat. Saturday was a pretty darn good day!!! I worked 10-3(same as Friday) and my dpt. manager came in and was like you can leave if you want.... I was like sure why not. And so I got to leave at 2 pm. I was sooooo happy!!!! I had time to wash my hair because I had green dye that deb put in my hair for the Eagles! And then my friend Megan came to WC from Allentown!!!!!!!!!!!! I was sooooooooo happy and excited to see her! She bought me flowers for an early V-day gift. I was like aww how sweet! So we went bowling which was totally fun!!! The bumpers were already set so we just played with them on and I was like sweet I am playing better then I usually do!!! I won the first game getting a 93!!! (go me!) and then she won the other getting the same score actually!!! (go us!!!) and then we drove to KOP to go to the Kildares for dinner and then on the way to Kildares I had saw a tent of Eagles stuff and so after dinner we went to go look and the stuff was expensive which didn't surprise me. $40 for hoodies some shirts were $20 and stuff for $8!!! Not at all worth it. So then we went to the KOP mall which was fun! We went to Foot Locker and I got an Eagles shirt as well as a Villanova shirt that was long sleeve so I could wear it under the Eagles shirt. Megan bought a hoodie for 19.99 and it was a special deal for buy one get one free so I got one also. We walked around a lot and then we went to Sam Goody and I thought I lost my stuff from Foot Locker and I was panicing, but it was at the check out counter (phew)!!! And then we got ice cream yummy!!!! And then we went to Barnes and Nobles in Exton for coffee/drink. And then we came back to my house and she gave me a massage!!!! which was very nice!!! She is going to massage school. And then we talked until 1 in the morning and she went home then!!! It was sooo great to see her!!! I missed her a lot! And work today wasn't that bad. It was busier than I thought it was going to be. It died down at like 2:30 - 3:00. I got home in time to see the kick-off and all. And then the Eagles start to play really badly!!! And they lost 24-20!!!!!!!!!!!! I was like what the freakin heck was that!!!! They let the Falcones get the ball like 3 times!!!! I was ticked off!!!!! Well anyway! Time for bed!!! need rest for tomorrow! Please pray for my dad!!! I get to see my grandmom and aunt and have lunch with them!!! Good night!!! I love you all! Sorry if I don't blog for a little bit! Please now that I love you guys and that I am thinking of you!!!

surgery

Hey my dear friends! My dad's surgery is tomorrow and I am getting a little stressed and scared. My mom was telling me that I might see him with a tube down his throat. It is going to be sooooooo hard for me to see him lying in a hospital bed. I am crying just writing this. Please pray for him. His surgery is at 12. They have to leave home at 7 and be there by 9 am. I am going to go see him around 4 or 4:30... I am being picked up with my sister Michele by our brother Mark. I know in my heart everything is going to be ok. But it's just really hard keeping my emotions at bay and my head is like but yeah what if this happens or something like that? I don't know how much I will be blogging this week, but if you want I can send an email or call(local people) to let you know how he is doing. Just reply to this and let me know! Please pray for the surgeon and doctors and nurses for wisdom! And for my dad to recover. And obviously for my family. I can't wait until next month or 2 months from now!!!! We are getting our kitchen re-done also and that starts the 21st of February. So when the week after he is suppose to get home they start with the kitchen! Oh fun stuff!!!! Love you all!!!!

dad's surgery and EAGLES!!!!!!

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EAGLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah baby it's our year!!!! just kidding! Let the best team win!!! I am probably just going to watch the game from home. Instead of going to the CR party and the Bridge party. My dad's surgery is the next day so I want to be home with my family. His surgery is at 12. They have to be there at 9 so they have to leave home at 7 am. I am not sure when i will be able to see him, but I may stay home and sleep and then go up with one of my brothers or sister. I don't know whats going on yet. But yeah! GOOOOO EAGLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They played the Eagles fight song at work today!!!! It was cool!! lol! And they got in Eagles earrings so deb(co-worker) and I bought a pair. They are cute! I got my hair cut today. It is kind of short and it is different from what I am use to... oh well!!!! I can't wait until Saturday because one of my best friends that moved away is coming to see me!!!!!!!! I haven't seen her since the summer. And she is just coming up to see me.. she doesn't have to work and I asked her what she was up to and she said nothing and I asked her if she wanted to/could come and she said yes!!!!! So I can not wait!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have a great weekend everyone!!!! Go Eagles. I will have green dye in my hair tomorrow if you guys want to stop by Boscov's between 10 till 3!!!!! hehehe! lol! Love you all!!!!!

Weekend and Monday

My parents went to Disney World they left on Friday early in the morning. My weekend wasn't that bad, but I was kind of ticked at my brother for a number of things. Some of you know why, but I don't really want to talk about it on here(nikki i am pretty sure you know why). If you want to know then just ask me. Friday night I was ticked off b/c the baby shower that was suppose to be last Saturday was on Friday I wasn't able to go because I had to work of course! I always have to work!!! So i went home and then I just got on AIM for a little and talked with people and then went to bed and then Saturday was kind of fun. I worked 5:30 till 10. And then I went to my friend Ruth's house and she made something to eat for the both of us and then we talked and stuff. We had both bought clothes and stuff so we showed each other. I didn't go home till 12:45 and guess what!?!?! It was snowing(again)!!! So I got home and then my brother pulls up right after me. He had 3 friends over. And they asked me what I was doing and I said nothing. So they asked me if I wanted to hang out with them I said why not. And then they said they wanted something to eat. Kevin(my brother) started to cook something and it wasn't in the right thing so I had to do it. I made a chicken and broccli which was already prepared. They played this game called a-whole... which kind of got loud. It is basically a drinking card game. And then at 3 we all went up and I went to bed and they were talking in my brothers room. They ended up spending the night(b/c of the snow which there wasn't alot of but I think they were drinking before hand so...) So I went to my room and a few minutes go by and my brother asks me if I care if two of the people sleep in our parents room. I was like um yes.... but I mean the only other bed we have is in the basement which isnt fun to sleep down their. So I was like whatever just tell the parents he said. I was like fine whatever!!!!! When really I wanted to smack him!!! But I didn't.... that night like 3:30 I could not get to sleep right away! And I was going to go to CCC at 10:30, but that didn't happen. I woke up at noon!!! I was like woah!!! I actually slept till noon for once. I didn't think I could do that! Monday was an ok day... I had my Earth Science class at 12 till 1:30 and then I had to teach my moms CCD class since she wasn't here and the kids were little rascals.... hehe! But some of them were good. One boy helped me sooo much getting the others to be quiet! And ya know normally he is not like that!!!! I think he knew I meant it and so he was trying to be more responsible! I was actually learning the names and all... I have only gone with my mom about 4 or 5 times. I knew some names but at times Im like this one or that one... so it was cool that I started learning there names. And then after CCD I had dinner with Rebecca and Trisha which was nice. We originally were going to go to TGIFridays but its was like a half hour wait!!!!!! We were like um no!!! So we went to Bob Evens... I had never been there! It was pretty good! Then I came home and just relaxed. And tomorrow my parents come home!!!! YAY!!! And then on Saturday I get to see one of my best friends who I have not seen since the summer!!!!! I CANNOT wait till this Saturday! I think I will be floating at work on Saturday... I work 10-3 and then we are going to meet up!!! I am so excited to see her! Have a great week all! Love yas!

update

Hey all! I haven't updated my blog in a couple days because I have been on the run doing so much. My parents left at 5:00 am this morning to go to Disney World. Lucky them... oh well! CrossRoads was fun last night. After CR Nina, Lynette, and Ruth and I went to the West Chester Diner. I have to say, that was a lot of fun!!!! We ordered a lot of ranch dressing. And Lynette dared Ruth to ask the waiter if we could have ranch dressing to go. And he came back with this little tube of ranch dressing with no lid and we were like um.. ok! And then he's about to walk away and he places two tubes of ranch dressing(with lids)... it was really funny! He was a good server. And then Ruth took me back to the church were my car was and we talked for a little and then she kicked me out.... hehe! My dad's surgery is a week from this coming Monday. We find out the time of his surgery next Friday. I am getting a little nervous and stressed. I had a test on Wednesday in Math which I forgot about and yeah lets just say I screwed up.... oh well. That's about all I have done this week so far. I have to work tonight from 5:30 till 9:45 and tomorrow same time I believe. Well I will talk to you all later! love ya!!!!! take care! have a good weekend!!!!!

in a blah mood

Today has been a weird day. My mood has changed a few times. Its like a roller coaster. I think because of all that is and will be happening. I also am feeling a little blue you could say. The day started out fine. I went to be at like 10:30 last night and then I got up at 9:45 ish. And I was the only one home(besides my cat hehe). And that was fine. My mom came home around 11:00 and she drove me to school. I normally drive myself but because of the snow it makes me a little nervous at times being it my first snow storm driving in. My second class Abnormal Psy. got out at 3 and so I called my mom and she was at her office and I had to wait until 3:45 till she got there which was ok. I didn't mind. I told her to take her time. So then she picked me up and then we went o WAWA to get coffee and a New York Times newspaper for my earth science class. My professor wants us to read the Science Times in that newspaper. So I got it. And then we went home. We just hung around and she was making dinner. I called a friend to see if she wanted to hang out but she didn't answer so I left a message. She never called me back. So I called another friend same thing. And so I was like forget about doing something now. And I ate dinner with my family and watched Jeopordy(sp) and then I was checking my email(of course their was nothing) and then my cell rings and its Tricia wanting to know if I wanted to hang out and I said yes. So she came to my house and she brought dunkin donuts. And then we watched American Idol. And obviously talked and she left at around 9:15 ish. Then I was trying to find something to watch on t.v. and I couldn't find anything so I got my Earth Science stuff to do homework. And I am almost done. I also cleaned my bathroom floor... don't ask why?! I don't even know myself. And that got me really warm in the middle of winter.... so right now in my room I have my fan turned on low. I have been feeling very weird lately. Not sick wise, but emotional. I guess because of my dad's surgery coming up it has gotten me messed up emotionally. At unexpected times I will just start thinking about it and start tearing up. One of my other parts of my mood is I feel lonely like no one wants to do anything with me. I know people are busy and all but I really love to hang out with people and its a way for me to get to know people better and the fact that I have never had a date or boyfriend. I find it hard and I feel so... I don't know! empty i guess. I feel like I am just a joke. no guy wants to have a relationship with me and I am not pretty enough. I don't feel attractive. I just find it really hard right now since you see couples all over the place and Valentines Day coming up. I just feel lonely I guess. The Winter Blues. Anyway I am sorry for blabbing on and on. Good night!

better day

Today, was a better day. I woke up around 11:15 and did nothing. It was snowing today all day!!! The mall closed at 2:30 this afternoon so I never had to work today! I was very happy about this! I found my ring. It had actually fallen into my bag(thank god). I found it last night I believe way after I had posted saying I lost it. I have been doing absolutley nothing besides doing homework and playing on the computer and talking to people. I might watch a movie later with my parents and maybe my brother. I hope everyone is safe. And know one had to go out in this yucky weather!!!! Stay safe! Love you all!

apology

I just wanted to say I am sorry for the way I was typing/talking. I get so angry and upset about things and then things just slip out. I am sorry if it affended anyone! I am becoming a weak person because of working at Boscov's were a lot of people curse frequently and I find myself cursing and I have tried not to curse, but everytime I stop I hear someone else say something and then it gets in my head and do it again. It's kind of like drugs. You get hooked and then you can't stop!!!

Yesterday or the day before, the surgeons office called and confirmed the date for my dad's surgery which is what we were given(Feb. 7) but the have to wait 30 days before to put on the schedule or something like that. I get so upset and sad at different times of the day but not everyday.... only when I starting to think about it or I don't have much going on. I just start tear up and get upset. I don't know who I am upset at. I know I am not upset at God. I know He didn't do anything or if he did he brought the good already! I guess it's just fear and sadness. Well, anyway please keep praying and I will update as soon as I know something new! Love you all!

coldness.....

Hey friends,
Today was another bad day for me. Why you ask? Lets see I lost my ring. I almost was locked in Boscov's. A co-worker was being really rude to me(practically yelling at me over the phone). Oh and yeah my co-worker I was suppose to work with called out again! This is the second day this week that I did not have a good day. And I hate boscov's. It is seriously bringing the worst out of me!!! I am tired of being so drained when I come home. I am always being told what I am suppose to do and ya know I have been there for a year and five months. I have been then their the second longest besides deb who has been their for three years! My manager has only been here for like four or five months. It really ticks me off.... I don't like talking to people above me... I know I should be but I don't feel like trying to get ahold of them because I usually on work the weekends and they aren't always there.... but any who!

I don't want this freakin snow. They say we are suppose to get 10-15"!!! My sister in laws surprise baby shower was suppose to be tomorrow at 4 and it is postponed. And I am sooooo pissed at my dpt. manager. I had asked off for tomorrow TWO MONTHS AGO!!!!!! And she puts me on the schedule and for the night shift. That just pisses me off!!!!!!!!! And another thing, people are so prejudice their. If you are not in the "clique" then they ignore you. I am talking about like the other dpt managers and the store manager. Yeah they will say hi to you and all but thats it. If you need something yeah right.... My friend was telling me she wanted to kill herself because of people at Boscov's and she shouldn't need to feel this way. And also you are suppose to pick up your checks and if you can't you have to either call ahead or write a note if you are having someone else picking it up. well she had her husband coming to get it and they wouldn't give it to him b/c of this reason and ya know NO ONE else in the freakin store listens to that damn rule because other people(boyfriends) come and get it without a need for a note or call. Now is that fair??? no. Anyways I am getting a little ticked off again about that so I am getting off! Good night!

snow, snow, snow

Yes, that is what it is doing outside right now! And it doesn't make me very happy. But oh well. There's nothing I can do about it. It frustrates me that DCCC doesn't close for the night classes because Laura and I have to drive to Downingtown which is not really a fun drive to start with and with snow..... oh my gosh. I should leave now!!!!!!!!! But ya know I don't care Im not going to go because I don't want to risk anything especially since this is my first time driving in snow!!! I almost slide into the curb coming home from my 12 o'clock class and I slide past my drive way and had to go up the street and turn around. I do not like driving in the snow... it's scary!!!! Hopefully DCCC is smart enough to close down for the night because people come from all over!!! Its a communiting only community college. and it's just going to freeze on the roads and get worse.