so yeaah...

I am actually updating my blog in a pretty good amount of time... things are ok... not doing that best but hey whatever... I am not complaining... the Lord will use this time in my life in some way for good... I may not know why or in what way for a while... but He will... At least I am learning things about myself and all... it may not be fast but I am learning! And recognizing things that I haven't noticed before... I think I am blogging for my peace of mind and to get things out kind of.. if ya know what i mean... it is a lot easier sometimes writing or typing than talking to people... i feel really lonely today and i want to talk to someone but cant... oh well.. guess i cant always be able to talk to someone when i am not doing well. I am just going to have to realize this.. and be ok with it... that is going to be the hard part... I need to learn to look to God more and rely on Him.. He is the only one who can be there for me ALL the time ANYTIME.... I know this but I can't seem to grasp how to do this... hmmm... that is one thing that I need to work on... well maybe I shall try and write another time this week. Have a great week if anyone reads this anymore.....

Haven't posted in while...

I'm not really sure why I even bother blogging anymore since not a lot of people even read my posts.... oh well... I guess I just like to write out my thoughts more than anything...

Have been struggling for a while now and some days are better then others which is normal I guess but a pain in some ways also... I am learning a lot more about myself and it is interesting. God has revealed some connections that I have started to see. Which is kind of cool.. I guess. I don't really know what else to post about... that is really all that is going on for me right now... not doing to well but God will bring me through this time eventually.... God bless you all!!