Praise God!!!

I just wanted to let you all know that I have a new job!!!! Im really excited about it too! I will be working at Calvary Fellowship Church as a receptionist! I start this coming Tuesday!!! thats about it for now!! have a wonderful New Years!!!

long time since i have posted...

Hey my friends!!! Sorry it has taken me a while to post something.... i've done it again and gotten myself fired!! i don't know why this keeps happening.... this time it was easier though... not really in the mood to talk to much about it now but yeah... please pray that i can find a new job fast because i do have expenses that need to be taken care of... please pray for me in general that i can "smarten up". i don't think before I act and that has to do with a lot of the problem or maybe its more than that... i don't know but it needs to stop and all........ i don't know why this is happening.... I know Kohl's was getting really wearing on me but its not the best way for me to leave... but im gonna go to bed im tired and i have a lot of job searching to do tomorrow so yeah... if any of you knows anyone who is hiring please let me know... thanks and please pray for me!

life is rocky

Hey all! Life is a little rocky right now. Please pray for me. I am trying to let God get me through this. I am trying to learn how to trust in him with everything! Well... its time for bed for me... i can hardly keep my eyes open!!!

To All My Friends!!!

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A must read!! Rapist on Myspace/AIM/AOL

THERE IS A RAPIST ON MYSPACE
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please read.... not a joke....
State police warning for online: Please read this "very carefully"..then send it out to all the people online that you know. Something like this is nothing to be taken casually; this is something you DO want to pay attention to.

If a person with the screen-name of jokerkid613/Ja$on MoNeY contacts you, do not reply. DO NOT talk to this person; do not answer any of his/her instant messages or e-mail. Whoever this person may be, he/she is a suspect for murder in the death of 56 women (so far) contacted through the Internet. Please send this to all the women on your buddy list and ask them to pass this on, as well. This screen-name was seen on Yahoo, AOL, AIM, and Excite so far. This is not a joke! Please send this to men too...just in case! Send to everyone you know! Ladies, this is serious.
Gentlemen, PLEASE let your Lady Friends know....

Jennifer S. Faulkner
Education/Information Specialist Roanoke Fire-EMS
541 Luck Avenue
Suite 120 Roanoke, VA 24016
540) 853-2257 (phone)
540) 853-1172 (fax)

IF WE CAN PASS ON JOKES, SURELY WE CAN PASS ON A WARNING THAT MAY SAVE A FRIENDS LIFE

For all of you!! love you my friends!

To: YOU
Date: Today
From: God
Subject: YOURSELF
Reference: LIFE
I am God. Today I will be handling all of your problems. Please remember that I do not need your help. If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it. Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. All situations will be resolved, but in My time, not yours. Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now.
- If you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don't despair. There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.
- Should you have a bad day at work; Think of the man who has been out of work for years.
- Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.
- Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.
- Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance; Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.
- Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror; Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.
- Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.
- Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; Remember, things could be worse. You could be one of them!
- Should you decide to send this to a friend; Thank you, you may have touched their life in ways you will never know!

life is looking up...

Hey friends! I am doing better then I was before.... I had kind of a crappy weekend but it got better.... I think it is manily me that is the problem... I always let things get to me and then it "floods" my mind. And then I can't get it out of my head. And I have found that I don't go to God first.. I usually ask people to pray for me not that thats wrong but I should be looking to God through everything first and foremost! I love going to the Bridge and just being in fellowship with other Christians especially girls!!! I am meeting so many great new people!! I am starting really forgive myself for all that has happened to me... I have totally stopped talking to that guy I was saying who was talking sexually to me. I had had enough of him and it built up to the point where I couldn't completely function with thoughts of hurting myself.... because of all that stuff he said and just with everything that was happening... I feel soooooo much better not talking to him. He really pissed me off and just put me in a bad mood. Especially last Thursday when he called me while in the hospital and talked for like a straight 10 minutes without me talking and all.... and I was with a friend. And I said that and he said well ya could have told me that! And hung up.. I was like thats it!! Turns out he's not having the surgery now b/c he got into a fight with the doctors and actually got kicked out of the hospital!!!!! haha!!! don't know how that happened but yeah! Sorry i am liking switching colors when I write my blogs! I hope you enjor the colors! heeeheee!! God is definitley stretching and growing me!!! Sunday and today have been good days for me!! Today I worked at 10-6:30 and it wasn't too bad... kinda busy and then slow at times... I didn't really have any negative thoughts today which is good b/c I was just happy and not really caring about anything.... I like most of the people I work with including the managers.... I like to joke around and stuff... make it a little fun/interesting... My managers say I am the "Credit Queen"... so far this month I have opened 14 credit apps for customers.... in one day I opened 8!!! Today I opened 3. It makes me feel good when I get them b/c they get really happy and all.... and they are not down our throats.... lol!! I went to have dinner with Ruth at her house with Sophia and another of ruth's friends.... we had tacos and stuff... its was gooooooodddddd!!!! I love taco salads!! She gave me some for lunch tomorrow!!! And now I am really really happy!!!!! So yeaah!!! Hope all is well with everyone!! Love ya all!!!!

Hey my beautiful friends!!!! God is just awesome and amazing!!! I am just sooo happy happy happy!!!! I obviously can't contain myself right now!!! haha! Although the first part of my weekend wasn't the best it ended great!!! Im alive and well!!!! I have God, I have family, I have friends.... what more could a girl ask for?! Bridge tonight at Kerr Park was auhmazing!!!!!!!!!!!! Really really really really awesome! Just what I needed!!! There was a slight breeze and it was God telling me that He was there and wrapping his arms around me and telling me that everything is and will be ok and to trust in Him!!!!!! There was also a bird flying and just flew higher and higher in the sky! One thing I have been praying about is to see God in the small things and to be open to Him showing me himself! Well how about that?! During church at CFC this morning and at Bridge when I close my eyes during worship I see a girl dancing her heart out for Jesus! I am just sooo excited for what God has for me this next year and the years to come.... I just need to learn to trust Him with EVERYTHING and all parts of my life and not "beat around the bush" and take back my regrets and all..... wow that was a long run on... haha oh well!! im not in English class.. heheh!!! but yeah! God is awesome! I love him with my whole being!!!! God bless you all!!!!!!!!! GO EAGLES!! THEY WON BABY!!!! hahaha sorry!!!

update on my blog from earlier!!!!!

Just a quick update from my blog earlier today.... I am doing better than I was earlier.... I know I definitley overreact a lot of the time. I just get so over worked about differenet things.. I spent from 5-10 reading my bible at Barnes & Noble..... I actually go there a lot to read and just relax. It is so calming there. I love it! I am at peace right now. I am thankful for everything that I have. Most people don't have anything and I have a roof over my head, a computer which I can have in my room, a comfortable bed, a fan, A/C, a small flat screen tv, a cell phone, a nice car, good friends, clothing on my back... and I could go on and on!! This day has got me thinking more about others instead of myself... yes it started out about me.. but I shouldn't be worrying about anything!! Here is a verse in which I really like especially right now!! Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7.And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. How awesome is that?! We don't have to worry about anything!! God is sooo awesome!!! My heart is happy and light!!! I don't know why I was so dramatic... I just got wrapped up in everything!! God bless you all! Love you all!!

not doing too good....

My life right now is a roller coaster... thats the best way to explain it! I will be fine for a while maybe a two days or so but yeah... Then I just am not myself... I hear someone say something or someone talks to me and then I start degrading myself and really beating myself up over most of the time nothing! Then I will talk with a friend and it helps and then bam again the cycle begins again! Why why why why?!?!?! I don't know and I don't understand! I wish someone would just come and kill me right now and put me out of my misery! Im sorry I am talking like this right now but it is the way I feel right now. I can't stand hearing people fight about anything and then put me in the arguement oh heck no!!!!!! Im sorry I just can't handle anything right now... I feel like I need to run away or something.. I don't have anywhere to go and I don't have the money or anything... i need a break from life... im so tired... i just want everything to stop!! i dont want/can't pretend everything is ok. when it is not!! My world, my everything is crumbling down!! I just needed some place to right down everything.... im sure in a day or two ill be better than i am right now!

why is life so hard and complicated!?

I am soo tired and being hurt and "abused" if ya wanna say..... I've just had enough of this life right now... don't really know whats going on. I am livin the moment to moment and thinking what the heck am I doing? nothing.. I don't know what to do.... I feel all I can do is write and cry if I need to... I have a hard time talking about my life... I'd rather be helping someone else than dealing with my own life and problems....Maybe that is good but I don't know. I feel that I am not that important... I don't know... I am at a stage of "i don't know's".... well I will write more later... gotta get lunch ready and have breakfast... and go to work :(.....

frustrated!!

Hey all! Why do guys have to be such a's????? I don't understand what it is with me and perverted guys..... All I want is to please God and not anything else. I don't want a relationship right now. And this guys says he is attracted to me... and keeps saying stuff when he knows darn well I don't like it!!! Guys piss me off! I am getting the impression that I am bad luck when it comes to relationships.... I don't really care about it... It just makes me feel really uncomfortable and disgusted.... like I wanna go hid under a rock and not come out!!

On another note.... everything else is going pretty well. I have been at Kohls for a year now! Nothing really bad has happened except with that Jen girl who was stealing money from us... still haven't gotten my money back yet!!! But yeah... nothing really new is going on besides the darn guy problems.... but anywho..... I just want to focus on God and trust in Him. I have been doing really well with my feelings of myself. On Sunday, I went to get a water from 7 eleven before going to Bridge and as I was walking in I was like I feel pretty and I feel good about myself... I didn't have bad thoughts/wasn't "condeming" myself for the crap that has happened... I didn't even care what people thought of me! I am still feeling like this off and on this week... but with the guy issue it has made it a little hard... So yeah! If you could pray for me that would be good.... I miss you all! Love you!

reflections of the summer

Things have been going pretty good!! I am understanding how much God loves me and its just so awesome to be reminded of it. I am in a bible study on Wed. nights and it has just been so awesome. It is Beth Moores "Breaking Free" and Had read some of it before in another bible study but didn't read it all. Now I re-read it and am so excited more than I was when I first started reading it! I am understanding it also... which helps! :-D hehe!! This summer has been tuff at times and then it will good and then back to hard times.... lately I am learning how to trust more in God and just give him EVERYTHING! Give him My all!! And through that I am able to trust more people and open up to others... especially in my bible study. I am usually the quiet one and just keep to myself and lately I have been able to just talk about like what the chapters have said to me and just be able to be grown and stretched.... It's awesome! I am more comfortable with talking about stuff that has happened to me in the past and things that have happened to me lately. And ya know I am starting to not care about what people say about me! It doesn't matter!!!! I am a beautiful Child of the Lord!!!! I don't even sound like the regular Jen! I don't know who this is!! hehe! I know who it is but ya know what I mean! lol!!! God is awesome!!! Thats my update for the day/week! Love you all! God bless you!!!

hello!!!!!!

Hey all!! Things are going really well!!!! God is good!!! I have been growing and being stretched this past summer!! Its awesome! At times hard but I have been learning and so it's good!!! Nothing really new is going on with me..... just working and hanging out with friends and that kinda thing!! So yeah!!! Not too much else!!! Hope to see ya all soon! Love ya!

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Thats the kind of mood I am in right now after being woken up by my stupid computer aftering falling asleep just about an hour ago.. since i couldn't sleep and all.... oh well mind you I tried go to bed at 12:30 and couldn't sleep say came back on till like 1:30 and tried to fall asleep and did and then computer restarts itself to update a program or something... Well now I can't sleep again and now I don't feel well!! argh!!!

Anyway things have been a little rocky this past week... I am doing good now just tired and not really feeling well! But not complaining... Im gonna try and go back to sleep... will update more later! love to all!

searching

Today has been a pretty good day! Just hanging out as I usually do now on my Sundays since I have off. I go to church usually Calvary Fellowship at 11:30 and then maybe hang out with a friend or not... just have some quiet time and just relax. It feels good to be able to not do too much every Sunday. I was looking/reading the blogs from the missions trip to Kenya with Word FM, and it really is tugging at my heart again that I need to go out and do something. It might just be in the West Chester area but I just feel led to help others mainly kids but anyone! It brought tears to my eyes to read about the children of Africa! I feel that all that has happened to me this past year and half has happened because God made it happen. To break me down and re-grow me and stretch me and change me! Well, I am definitley changing! And now I want to help others change and to be a light to the lost. I want to just do things for others and not expect anything in return not that I ever expect things from my friends. I freely give! That is how God made me!!! Love you all!!!

GOD IS GOOD!!!!!!!

Hey all!!! Well how about that?! Two posts in one night!! Well I am doing pretty darn patutin good right now!!! I am feeling better about the whole guy thing! I am talking on AIM with a friend and a guy... And I was just saying how this whole thing was a blessing in disguise to get me back on track type of thing! Kind of like a kick in the butt! This whole thing has brought me closer to friends and helping me to be in the word! I am trying to think better... and not "bash" myself or so stupid non-sense!!! Which can be hard but I can do it with the help of my friends!! So if you are with me or see me and I am saying stuff that is degrading be like Jen what are ya saying??? Keep me accountable for that and correct for me!!! I am really starting change and it is amazing and I feel good!! I am happy actually!!! I am realizing I don't need a guy in my life and God may not want me to be married who knows.... that is a long time from now! I am not thinking about that now! I want to live for God and only him!!!!! GOD IS SOOOO GOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God bless you all! Love you!

So yeah I had dinner with a guy friend of mine and we were waiting to be seated and all... and there was a rainbow! I haven't seen a rainbow in so long!! Well that was kind of a ramble! Have a good night! God loves ya and so do I!!

updates

Recently that is all I have been posting about.... well... Im sorry for not really blogging all that much. I get busy and tired and at times I just don't feel like typing.... So yeah! Things are getting better, but I am still struggling so if you could continue to pray that would be really awesome! I love you all!! I don't know if I have mention that to you guys lately! I appreciate our friendship!! Things have been busy and stressful! The guy situation is over and I do not talk to that guy anymore. He was not definitley not the right guy for me! He made me do things I didn't really want to do..... it was kinda like "peer pressure" in a way... he kinda talked me into it..... but yeah thats over and as I had said I felt stupid and cheated! I didn't feel like I deserved to be anything or do anything. I am starting not think like that anymore.... I just felt really bad and I felt like hiding in a way.... like I was robbed of all my joy and love... like when you are raped. Kind of like that. I am doing better but I am not completely healed of the feelings. I have learned a lot and am trying to just talk about it and not keep everything bottled up inside... What is that going to do?? it will make things worse not better..... Well, I will blog soon again! Love you all!! Thanks for being my friends! And thanks for helping me along the way in the different ways that you help!

updates................

Hey friends! Sorry I haven't really talkative on here and on phone if you have called me or I call you. As you know if you read my latests blogs, I have been going through some crap. Things are getting better. Some of you read the blog where I said I guy like me from aol im... well thats over and I really don't care anymore about him.He just like made me do things I wouldn't normally do and he hurt me like emotionally. I do not need that. I deserve better. All i can say is this has been good b/c I have be praying and reading the bible more. I have gotten closer to God through this. Please be praying for me! Love you all! It has definitley been a learning experience for me.....

need prayers!!!

I don't want to go into but I just need prayers for strength and courage and for healing....... I think I went to far and did something stupid...... thats all im gonna say!

sorry......

After re-reading my post from last night.. i feel like I need to apologize! I was just really tired and upset and all. I am doing better. i have been able to talk with some of my friends and all which have been nice. About the comment I said about my friend talk to me about guys and stuff... well it doesn't really bother me in a way b/c I don't know. yeah I have never been in a relationship with any guys that doesn't mean I don't know anything ya know? So yeah that was kinda stupid of me. Just so you guys all know................................................ are ya ready for this?! there's a guy that i have been talking to online for a couple of days now and he likes me... so who knows! I'll be posting updates more on this later! Right now I gotta get ready for work! Love you all!!

ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

That is my mood right now! I am so frazzeled and going into pieces at the moment! Things are getting to me.... like friends problems and whatnot.... emotional stuff and feelings. I am going through a lot at the moment. And I kinda don't know how to talk about it and don't know if I want to... I have talked to some people. But I am really stressed not by work though.... and I feel depressed... like I want to talk to certain people and then I kind of feel "blown" off in a way. I know thats not really what it is... thats how it feels to me though. Like last night after the Bridge and all I just felt alone and stuff. I usually stay and talk with people till around 10:30 but not last night. I left at like 10 and want to Appetites with a girl I went to high school with and we ended up sitting with these three guys.... Sometimes I just feel like I need to be alone and all. That was last night, but I couldn't be alone.... I couldn't sleep last night. I had a pain in my stomach and couldn't get comfortable and just had twenty millions things running through my head at once. Then my friend from Bridge was like I wanted to call ya last night but thought it was too late and all.... and ya know I don't care if she did or didn't but I mean she just wanted to talk about guy stuff/problems and what not... well ya know what? I don't give a crap and I really am the wrong person to talk to about that..... but I like that she trusts me about that. And I don't know maybe I am the only one who will really listen to her rant about it... so whatever... i'll keep my mouth shut. Please be praying for me. I want to be healed from my pain and all that is carrying me down!

updates on life

Hey friends! Things have been really busy and that is why I haven't updated recently. Sorry about that! Or when I had the time to I was dead tired! Thank you for praying for me. I feel God is healing me gradually! If you want to know more just send me an email or something. Please continue to pray please. I am doing well. Just been really busy. I have been working a lot but shorter hours since they have been cutting the hours :( I need the hours... I am meeting a lot of great people at the Bridge and at CrossRoads. I am hanging out with more Christians which is also helping me to be stretched and get out of my comfort zone. So God is growing me and God is good!!!! That is all for now! Will update more later! Love you all!

much needed prayers

Hey my lovely beautiful friends! Things have really been busy and stressful at times. I am getting tired of some of the things going on.... but ya thats another issue..... I really need you guys to be praying for me... i feel very "weak" not physically but spiritually... like kind of a Sunday christian. I am not saying that I don't do stuff with the church through the week its just I don't feel really connected and then with work it gets me down and I get really upset and angry like I was at Boscov's. And I feel at times depressed. These are some of the emotions I have had bottled up and its not healthy and I know this but it is sooo hard to talk to people about this. That is why I have been not writing too much lately. I hate my life at the moment. I get yelled at by my step dad about the stupidest stuff about like the future and my health. I know I need to do something about it all but I don't know what to do or how to do it....Im really tired of the BS I get from my step dad at different times. I know it is his way of caring about me but it doesn't really work... Tomorrow I have to go to court for the girl who stole from our lockers at work. And I kind of nervous because of what happened to me and if it is mentioned. Please pray!I am really tired of being treated like a child in some ways. Like for instance my mom asked me tonight if she should come with me to the court thing.... I was like no that would be stupid and all. I need to start doing somethings on my own to help me be more independent. Well... for now thats all! I love ya! Take care!

Jen's ramblings!

Hey there my friends!!! I am back.... not really gone away but I am blogging again!! yayayay! hehe! Sorry for how long it took me to blog again. Things were busy and I just plain a simple was not in the mood to blog. I am doing better than the last time I blogged but I am still not 100% me. Things are just getting to me and thats all I will say for now. I have had really busy weeks with work and weekends my gosh!!! I babysat this past Saturday night. I was only suppose to babysit till 12ish well the parents didn't come home till 1:15(the dad anyway). And then I woke up Sunday at 8:15 and went to church and sang with my churches youth choir. I am friends and I work with the director so she would be angry if I didn't come and plus her youngest son had his 1st Communion. So I kind of had to go. I have babysat for her so I kind of felt that I needed/should go... It was cool though! And we sang pretty well. And our harmonys were pretty good too. Then this week I am working 6 days straight!!! I think they are trying to kill me. But its not that bad b/c the hours are spaced out.... which is good..... Can you guys do me a favor(John Reilly Band too)! Please vote for them so they can play at Creation this summer! Here's the link! http://www.hearitfirst.com/genres/indiescovery.aspx Thanks guys! Love ya all!!!

lalalala

Hey all!! Sorry I haven't blogged in a little while. Things have been on my mind and on my heart. I have been struggling and I need some prayer. So if you could pray for me that would be great! Please just ask me what is up and all. I don't feel like typing a lot on here. I love you all!!! Sorry Becca for not updating for a while.... Talk to ya all later!

A really great poem!

When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin."I'm whispering "I was lost,"Now I'm found and forgiven.

When I say..."I am a Christian"I don't speak of this with pride.I'm confessing that I stumble and need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"I'm not trying to be strong.I'm professing that I'm weak and need HIS strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"I'm not bragging of success.I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"I'm not claiming to be perfect,My flaws are far too visible but, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"I still feel the sting of pain,I have my share of heartaches So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"I'm not holier than thou,I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow.~Maya Angelou~

Wonderful weekend!!!!

Despite my last blog, I did have a really good weekend!!! I worked Friday night till 9:30 and then came I did something but I can't remember what I did.... I think I grabbed a quick bite to eat and then on Saturday I had helped at the Lionville YMCA with the Healthy Kids Day. That was fun! I went with some people from Kohls. One guy handed out game prizes and I started out doing the snacks(pretzles, apples, juice and grapes) and then I was helping with the crafts. We made picture frames. It was really fun! And then at 2 I had lunch with a friend I work with and then I had to work 6:45 till 11:30. That kind of sucked but it wasn't too bad. It was pretty quite as it got later obviously. Then on Sunday, Palm Sunday, I went to my church (Sts. Peter and Paul) and sang with the youth choir. I am friends with the director and shed kill me if I didnt stay in the choir. She does not care how old I am. And then I had do something with a couple of friends and then Laura and I went Valley Forge park and walked around for a little and I got to see Laura's house. Which is very cute! And then I went to the Bridge and it was AMAZING!!!! I went out to eat with Sophie. Even though it rained on Saturday it was still a pretty weekend, especially yesterday!!! There was not even a cloud in the sky! Well I love ya all!!! It is two(2) blogs for me in one day! How about them apples!?

ramblings

Hey my friends! I am so frustrated with work right now that a couple times today while I was at work I felt like I was going to walk out. I felt like I could just cry because I was/am pissed and really fed up with the crap!! They don't know how to do schedules. This week is going to be horrible to start with because there is no school!!!! What does that mean?! Taking your kids shopping!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Well it sucks! I love kids to death but some of these kids are really bad and horrible. Like this one girl who hit her mom right in front of me and a little girl. I was like are you freakin kidding me!!! That was last week though but still!!! It makes you wonder....... Just please keep me in your prayers. I really need to think and pray what it is that God wants me to do in life. And I need to find a new job that hopefully pays better!

This is for Becca!

I kept my word and I am updating my blog!!! I have been busy with work. The past three days I have been working 12-8(mon) 12-7:30(tue) and 12-6 (wed) And it has basically all been on register which gets tiring b/c I have to just stand there and I can't just go to the bathroom when I need to or take my break when I want. It stinks.. but what can I do? I have to do what my schedule says. And my foot has been hurting b/c I don't have a toe nail on my left pinky toe. It is growing back now but it hurts when it is rubbed by my sock and all. I am listening to the news and the weather just came on and it said we might have more odd weather! yuck!!! It seems like everyone is dying around the same time. I just found out a family friend just died from lung cancer. We weren't sure how long she would live. We knew she wasn't doing well. She was a heavy smoker and then she quit and then got lung cancer and it had already spread through her body. It has been a hard two months. Just the other night(i think it was Monday) I had a dream that my uncle said mass again at our church or a church. So it was weird b/c I know he's dead but it felt so real. And I think it is because I never got to go to the hospital before he died. So it is harder on me. Most of my family got to see him. My mom told me that he had asked about me and how I was doing. So that was cool. I am so sad and mad at myself that I didn't go see him. But we didn't know he was going to die. Why did this have to happen??? to such a faithul and God fearing man. Give me a call if you want to do something this weekend I have the house to myself starting Saturday sometime till Thursday. Have great rest of the week! Love ya all!!

ramblings

Hey all! Sorry I haven't blogged in a while. Been busy and needed sometime just to realx and be with family after the death of my uncle. It has been hard but its always hard when someone you love dies! Things are going ok... Life is life ya know? Kohls is going ok. I haven't been scheduled that much recently. They are giving the hours to the new people that they hire who by the way QUIT after like a week or some the day after they start!!!!! So all the people who have worked their for years or about a year or so have like a lot less hours then what they had had. It sucks but what are ya going to do!? It has been a little hard because people have asked if they could stay longer than their shift and the managers say no. even though most of the time their is hours but they just don't say anything. Like in kids for instance, the supervisor is the only one in the dept. most of the time and they say oh we don't have any hours in there... ya right!!!! And there is a bunch of gaps when people come in. Like on Friday I came in at 4(which I was not scheduled) and my supervisor was leaving at 2. I was actually taking her place b/c she was suppose to work 2-10:30 because she got invited to something and she asked me if I was able to work. well thats all I have for today! I hope you all have a fantastic week! Hope to see some of ya soon!

Please be thinking about my family!

My lovely friends, as I have posted earlier my uncle passed away this on Monday. He was a priest and he was loved by some many people. I ask you to pray for my family and friends tomorrow. We are having the burial and mass. We had a prayer service and it was hard! A lot of priests and people he preached too were there. It was hard. And tomorrow it will be even harder. Please be thinking about my family! Thanks! Right now I have to go to bed b/c I can barely see b/c of crying so much... my eyes are stinging like mad!!!!

Sad day with sad news!!!!

Thanks for praying for my uncle. He couldn't fight the infection that he had in his liver, which unfortunetly killed him. He passed away at around 4:30 or so. This will be a hard week for us. Please keep our family in your prayers. It would be muchly appreciated! Thanks! I love ya all!!!

Prayer request/update on my uncle!

Hey folks! My uncle(who is a priest), Fr. Bill, has been in the hospital this past week and a half or so. He has major liver damage and is going to be getting a liver transplant. Fr. Bill was put on the transplant list at around 11 am this morning. He gets a call saying that there is a liver that he might be able to have. He has a rare blood type so he could get a liver at any time! While my step-dad was at the hospital tonight, he got a call saying that a liver was available and he might be getting it depends if the person before him is a match with the liver. We will find out at around mid-night tonight. Please keep my family in your prayers! Especially Fr. Bill and the doctors and nurses and my parents and his brother Kevin, Chuck(who lives in Arizona) and his sister who will be coming from NJ and stay with us if he does have the surgery! I will post updates as I get them! Love ya! Thanks!

updates on everything.....

Theres not a a whole lot new with me right now!!! Which can be good in a way.... I have been busy working and trying to make time to hang out with friends which at times can be hard. I am really trying to think of what is new.... I can't really think right now b/c I am tired and am starting to get a little headache. Speaking about headaches. I think I might still have lymes disease. I don't know for sure though. My muscles and joints have been achey. Thats all that I really can think of that is new.... until next time! I love you all my friends! Thanks for being my friend!

Prayer needed

Hey all!! As the title says my family needs prayer..... My uncle has not been feeling well for the last week or two. And this week he was admitted to the hospital. We are unsure of what actually has been going on, but we know he has some liver damage and will more than likely need a liver transplant. He has had a series of tests for the past few days he's been in the hospital. The good news about the liver transplant is that he has a semi-rare blood type, therefore, he will probably get a liver faster than most. It has been a little bit stressful on my family. Especially I think my step-dad b/c it is his brother. I will give updates as I get them! Thanks!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BECCA!!!!!

Happy Birthday Becca! Hope your day is awesome!!!! Also Happy Valentines Day Everyone!! Love ya all!!! Take care! It's just another day.... lol!

More updates....

Hey my lovely friends! I have been kinda busy and have not had a lot of time to post... I have been checking to see what is going on with all of you! I miss all of you!!!! I can't wait for summer so we can hang out more(hopefully).... I wish it had not snowed but hey I can't control the weather!!!! It makes me sad because I can't do everything that I want to do and need to do... but oh well.... it can wait.. My youth choir at my church(Sts. Peter and Paul) was suppose to sing tomorrow at 9 am and now b/c of the snow we are not singing.... so yeah... oh well.... shhtuff happens!! And then ya move on.. right? Work is going okk.... just been busy and a little pissed off.... The managers don't understand anything and it gets me upset.... I have to like split myself into like 10 different people(which by the way is impossible) to get all the things the ask me to do. I have to be putting stuff back which is like piled up to the wallazoo!!! I have to go on register for however long I need to be there and then a manager will ask "oh jen how's the recovery(close back on floor)?" I am finding out this job is a lose lose situation. I have to do so many things and nothing gets done especially when they tell me to go to another dept. and then bizitch at me for kids looking like crap! I am getting tired of it, but at the same time I like where I am and what I am doing for the most part...... Please just pray that managers won't be down my throat so much! I have cried once at work because I feel like it is not worth even doing anything b/c people will just mess it up right after you get done fixing it!!! And another time a manager yelled at me for not having gotten done alll the recovery! LIKE I AM SUPERWOMAN!!! I don't think so.... if you want it to get done YOU CAN'T KEEP ASKING PEOPLE TO GO SOMEWHERE ELSE AND EXPECT THE RECOVER TO GET DONE?!?! hELLO!! Ok sorry about that... Im frustrated with them.... well, I hope everyone is doing well!!! ttyl! Love ya!!!!!!

Love Letter read at Bridge

You may not know me, but I know everything about you. Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up. Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways. Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image. Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being. Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring. Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived. Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation. Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb. Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born. Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. 1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. 1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father. Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love. Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you. Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession. Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul. Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things. Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires. Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being. Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. 1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. 1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father. Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…Will you be my child? John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you. Luke 15:11-32Love, Your Dad.

updates.....

Well, I guess I have blogged a lot today/tonight!!! hahaha! Well, I wanted to let ya all know what was going on around Exton/WC area!! I need some prayers or something. A "friend" from where I used to work at Boscovs, texted message me last night(Monday night) and asked me if I was gay.. I was like um.. k.. right!!! Right, she acclaims I act like I am gay. And then she said to leave her alone and she blocked me... I was so pissed last night. And I don't understand why she'd say something like that..... what are your thoughts?! I will talk to ya later!

Ladies be careful!!!!

I just saw on the Channel 10 News about 10-20 mins ago that a guy is stealing women's purses. So keep your purse under your arm and be on the look out!!! He was caught on camera at the Exton ACME. I will let you all know more information when I get more. I emailed NBC who broadcasted the news cast. The guys description is he wears a hat and a hooded sweatshirt(on the camera it looked like a black hat and a grey hoody). Prolly around 5'8 or so. It said to call West Goshen Police.

Please read!!!!!!

Tuesday, January 24, 2006
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busy

Hey all! I have been a little busy. Sorry for not blogging much.. So yeah... things have been a little stressful at work. I think I have told some of you that this girl has been stealing from coworkers. Going into their lockers and taking money. Well, this happened to me twice! I was really pissed! Still am but what can I really do about it? I had told a manager both times. And the 2nd time it happened it was more money so one of the managers paged me and told me to come to the office and write a statement and so I did. This was on a Tuesday I think and then that Friday she tried to steal again from a co-worker. But someone came in and saw her and we now have a camera in the break room where all this was happening! So she got caught and got arrested and taken out of the store handcuffed. We eventually will get our money back. She has to pay us back(its her restitution) and if she doesn't then we individually have to take her to court. Also it has been stressful b/c of the managers keep getting down our throats about everything and they ask us to do things and then an hour later the page you and are like so hows your recovery(returns and crap) and they say oh what have you been doing the whole time?! So it's kind of a lose lose type of situation! Well, hope all of you are doing well!!

Happy New Years!!!!

Happy New Years to all of you!! Things have been really busy with work and doing family stuff!! I have been checking the blogs and all and now I am finally able to take a minute to write some stuff!! Well, Christmas did not feel like Christmas to me but it was and its gone till next year. I got to see a lot of family and friends.

We had our traditional Christmas dinners. On Christmas day we have Chinese Food and then we use to have Johns' Pizza for Christmas Eve dinner but now it is the day after Christmas because of all the kids in the family now who are in plays and what not. I sang at my church on Christmas Eve with the youth choir and we sounded pretty good! It was packed!!!! I have been in that choir for 8 years now! I am one of the "founding" members! The choir director is one of my family friends and I also work with her now at Kohls.

Kohls is starting to slow down but not for returns!!!! Returns are the craziest part at the moment! Things are going pretty well!! Sometimes I get sooo annoyed working there because of the managers. They don't know what they are doing and they screw everything up. And ya get yelled at for not doing something when they told you to do something else.... whatever!!

I got to see my grandmom and aunt on Christmas day and then I will get to see them again sometime soon because we have a family tradition of giving Barnes and Nobles(or for a while it was Borders in DE) gift cards and then we pick a day to go to DE and spend a while there and all. It is always fun and it is always great to see them! I also got to see my grandfather last Thursday. That is him up there!! He said he had to get me a drink for my birthday! so yeah! lol!

I miss hanging out with all of you and I hope to spend sometime with all of you! Love ya and can't wait to see ya! Have a happy New Year!