Hanging in there...

I am just hanging in there... some days are a lot better than others as usual.. The beginning of this week wasn't that great... Then Thursday and Friday were pretty good. Thursday I think was better than Friday!

I don't know if any of you have heard of Greg Laurie?? He is an evangalist from CA and he does crusades around the US. Well he is coming Oct. 3-5 in Philadelphia for a crusade and my church is one of the host churches. For the next 2 Thursday's (and then one that just passed) we are having Impact classes where we will be trained to be counselors for the event!!! We got an Impact booklet thing and in it was the blue sheet of paper that had memory verses on it. One of the verses was Psalm 139 (which I really like) and I had read it somewhere earlier and then I read it somewhere else later and so I was like God what are ya telling me?! Oh and here is another thing!! I was journaling at 12:30 this morning and which verse do you think was written on the side?!?! Yeah, you got Psalm 139!!! So I am going to try and memorize that!!! Probably not some of it but most of it!!

So yeah, I have had a pretty good past couple of days... with a little struggles here and there... Oh and I am trying to not think so negatively about myself... so pretty much I am trying to love myself the way others love me especially God! So if you could please pray for me about that!! God is definitely working in me this year... some really hard things and some that just have to be taken care of....

If you think of it can you also please pray for me... I have a job interview for a FT position on Thursday around 3ish.... It is for a daycare and I am kind of excited and nervous... My friend works there and I had filled out the application liek 2-3 weeks ago and I hadn't heard anything about it. Then this past Tuesday my friend had told me that they got my application and she talked to her boss and told her about me and so she looked at my info and called me!!! So I have an appt this Thursday!!!

Well, I can't think of anything else right now!! Hope everyone is doing well!!! Have a great weekend!! Love ya all!!!

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That is my mood..... I am obviously not doing the best.... thats ok... I am just trying to get through everything... So if you could and wouldn't mind praying for me I would appreciate that!! Work has been sooo boring lately.... I have been just sitting around and not really doing that much...I have been really tired lately... I am planning on just hanging out and not doing much on Saturday!!! I am going to sleep in and do laundry... just hang around the house... ahhh can't wait!!!! I am really looking forward to this.... I haven't been able to just really hang out in probably 2 weeks... so yeah it will be nice and much needed!!

**i had to stop writing for awhile since I was at work and all! Didn't have time to come back to it until 11:45pm. Anyway, tonight has not been a good night.... I had to work 12 hours today... too long and I had like no energy to work tonight... very unusual for me!! I usually have a lot of "pent up" energy... I don't know why I didn't have any... I wasn't really feeling that well tonight... Obviously that doesn't help much... My past week has been kind of insanely crazy... especially Monday.... I took off from work to clean a house that I am house sitting and cat sitting in.... I cleaned until 11:30 pm... and then woke up Tuesday and did a few things before going to work (9-2:30)and then worked 3-6 and then had bible study at 6pm-9:30 and I was EXHAUSTED!!! I could hardly keep my eyes open while we watched a movie and then driving home was a pain... got stuck in traffic not even 2 minutes down the road from where I am staying!! They were doing road work... (repaving) oh and did I mention this happened TWICE to me?!?!!? On Wednesday night as well!!!!! I was not very happy!!! They are done doing that road now one of the major roads is blocked off tonight till maybe this whole weekend I don't really know, is shut down to do road work and that road has had one lane for probably 2 weeks if not more!! argh!! they always have to do many roads at the same time... argh!!!

Back to the end of the week though.... Tonight was not a great night... I kept feeling dizzy a little bit here and there... and I was drained and am really tired... which speaking of that I probably should go to bed soon ;) considering it is almost midnight!!! shesh!!! please pray for peace of mind and that I can learn how to love myself as God loves me and my friends... ANd that I give myself more time for me... instead of going and going and going until I burn out... Pray that I don't/wouldn't do anything stupid to myself... and pray I won't/don't isolate myself... I have a tendency to do this! Well, Ok I need to get to bed... I am really tired!! Good night.... happy August 2nd!!!! Have a great weekend!!