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That is my mood..... I am obviously not doing the best.... thats ok... I am just trying to get through everything... So if you could and wouldn't mind praying for me I would appreciate that!! Work has been sooo boring lately.... I have been just sitting around and not really doing that much...I have been really tired lately... I am planning on just hanging out and not doing much on Saturday!!! I am going to sleep in and do laundry... just hang around the house... ahhh can't wait!!!! I am really looking forward to this.... I haven't been able to just really hang out in probably 2 weeks... so yeah it will be nice and much needed!!

**i had to stop writing for awhile since I was at work and all! Didn't have time to come back to it until 11:45pm. Anyway, tonight has not been a good night.... I had to work 12 hours today... too long and I had like no energy to work tonight... very unusual for me!! I usually have a lot of "pent up" energy... I don't know why I didn't have any... I wasn't really feeling that well tonight... Obviously that doesn't help much... My past week has been kind of insanely crazy... especially Monday.... I took off from work to clean a house that I am house sitting and cat sitting in.... I cleaned until 11:30 pm... and then woke up Tuesday and did a few things before going to work (9-2:30)and then worked 3-6 and then had bible study at 6pm-9:30 and I was EXHAUSTED!!! I could hardly keep my eyes open while we watched a movie and then driving home was a pain... got stuck in traffic not even 2 minutes down the road from where I am staying!! They were doing road work... (repaving) oh and did I mention this happened TWICE to me?!?!!? On Wednesday night as well!!!!! I was not very happy!!! They are done doing that road now one of the major roads is blocked off tonight till maybe this whole weekend I don't really know, is shut down to do road work and that road has had one lane for probably 2 weeks if not more!! argh!! they always have to do many roads at the same time... argh!!!

Back to the end of the week though.... Tonight was not a great night... I kept feeling dizzy a little bit here and there... and I was drained and am really tired... which speaking of that I probably should go to bed soon ;) considering it is almost midnight!!! shesh!!! please pray for peace of mind and that I can learn how to love myself as God loves me and my friends... ANd that I give myself more time for me... instead of going and going and going until I burn out... Pray that I don't/wouldn't do anything stupid to myself... and pray I won't/don't isolate myself... I have a tendency to do this! Well, Ok I need to get to bed... I am really tired!! Good night.... happy August 2nd!!!! Have a great weekend!!